And I'm scared about talking to the new friends I've made, because of the fact that they're so outgoing, and experience has taught me that the outgoing types just don't seem to understand feeling of unhappiness as they're so used to laughing and joking all the time. So, it's a bit like: ''Will they take me seriously?'' kind of thing if I do tell them things.

I just want to go home, and see friends, but home is 5 hours from here. I'll have to wait till the 20th, when I go back for Christmas.