I love her so much, and she has been so kind to me. I can't imagine anyone loving me as much as she has. Or me loving anyone like I love her.
She isn't dead yet, but she is getting older and maybe sicker, so it's an issue.
She's basically my role-model, and my mother.
I don't ever want her to die.
For example, does death really end someone's life? I believe that after we die we go to a heavenly place. AndI hope you do as well. So death is just a way of moving into another dimension, into another world. It's the next step toward complete happens, and we all need to die at some point, and we all will. But think about it this way: You're grandma will be going to a better place, because here mission here is done. You don't have to be sad about that.
The fact that you want to die if she dies seems normal to me because it looks like you're really close to her, but do you think she would want you to do that? Do you think she would have liked that? I'm sure she would not, so don't even think about it. Just be happy that you had such a wonderful grandmother and treat her as well as you can. Give her all your love and respect. And don't be sad because she will die, because people never really die if we remember them. They love in our memories forever
that's so sad. I'm sorry.
Just ten times worse.