My problem is that it still crosses my mind. I did it for four years, so I know I can't just put it down and forget.
But, fuck, I'm tired of it!
I saw a girl who had scars on her arm, then one day gauze, and it's so fucking triggering. Every time I see her I want to be like "So, how did you get away with that living in the dorms and all?"
Shove it.
You have not the slightest idea what it's like. Cutting yourself once or twice because your boyfriend broke up with you or mommy told you to clean your room doesn't mean you know what it's like to be ADDICTED. There's a fucking difference.
I would suggest professional help, a support group, the like. i'll leave you some stuff to look at treatment and counseling; American Psychological Association - locator.apa.org - counseling services locator AAMFT - www.therapistlocator.net - counseling services locator Befrienders Worldwide - www.befrienders.org - treatment and counseling services locator SAMHSA - findtreatment.samhsa.gov - substance abuse treatment center locator SAMHSA - mentalhealth.samhsa.gov - mental health services locator AACC - www.aacc.net - Christian counseling services locator For Help with SELF-INJURY: S.A.F.E. - www.selfinjury.com - "S.A.F.E. ALTERNATIVES is a nationally recognized treatment approach, professional network, and educational resource base, which is committed to helping you and others achieve an end to self-injurious behavior." Self Mutilators Anonymous - www.selfmutilatorsanonymous.org - "Self Mutilators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other, that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from physical self-mutilation." S.A.F.E. Alternatives - www.selfinjury.com - 1-800-Dontcut - Self Abuse Finally Ends these are from twloha.com good luck
American Psychological Association - locator.apa.org - counseling services locator
AAMFT - www.therapistlocator.net - counseling services locator
Befrienders Worldwide - www.befrienders.org - treatment and counseling services locator
SAMHSA - findtreatment.samhsa.gov - substance abuse treatment center locator
SAMHSA - mentalhealth.samhsa.gov - mental health services locator
AACC - www.aacc.net - Christian counseling services locator
For Help with SELF-INJURY:
S.A.F.E. - www.selfinjury.com - "S.A.F.E. ALTERNATIVES is a nationally recognized treatment approach, professional network, and educational resource base, which is committed to helping you and others achieve an end to self-injurious behavior."
Self Mutilators Anonymous - www.selfmutilatorsanonymous.org - "Self Mutilators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other, that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from physical self-mutilation."
S.A.F.E. Alternatives - www.selfinjury.com - 1-800-Dontcut - Self Abuse Finally Ends
these are from twloha.com good luck
Wow, thank you.
I love twloha and may some day grow the balls to buy a shirt.