In third period this girl who sits in front of me started this conversation about college, and so did the other people who were sitting around me. The main girl started bragging about how she got into Baylor (medical college) and the essay she wrote, etc Then so did the other people. It made me kind of feel like shit, but then it got worse when another girl started talking about community college and how her mom tried to convince her to sign up for classes there. She was like, "hell no!", and then everyone laughed and agreed and ripped on it.
I felt like shit for the rest on the day.. I guess because I'M going to community college (two year nursing program) and then I felt kind of worthless, since I didn't apply to college.. only because I've switched high schools a few times, my grades aren't great (I pass), and I don't really have the money. Those are just excuses; I could have tried harder, loans, scholarships.
I dunno.. I just feel so fucking bad about it. I know its my fault, but still, I do.
I just want to sleep for a while. I wish it were Friday night so I could pass out and wake up Monday morning.
just know shell die a terrible rape involved murder while you live in wealth and prosperity.
LOL!!
... I nearly fell out of my chair.