Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic please. can someone help. or relate. something. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]scott sm[/m] at 6:57 pm on Nov. 22, 2008[quote]wow wait there one moment dont do anything stupid, listen do you want to talk to help get some things off yer chest[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 6:55 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 i disgust myself. i want to die. i want to absolutely die. i went from 135 to 125 in two weeks and i KNOW i'm back at 128 now i just KNOW it. i disgust myself. i'm a failure and don't deserve to live because i can't even control myself. i woke up and had fiberonecereal, and then steamed spinach, then a little more cereal, and puked most of it up. then i had crackerscrackerscrackers, and then THREE pieces of pizza...i puked up one or two pieces, and then had two more. and a tablespoon of icecream. I hate myself and I really don't deserve to live. I'm disgusting and sickening by all definitions of the words and can't control my grotesque, fat, ugly, glutton of a 'self'. I am not 'me' anymore. I am a fat pig who shoves pizza in her mouth, until her stomach is distended. I am a disgusting, sickening, pig who doesn't deserve to live.

Replies HiRyo Posted at 7:05 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Seriously you are an average weight... WHICH IS NOT FAT AT ALL! Thats like perfect! Other people would strive to get to that weight! Your body needs all that pizza dammit or you can grow!! Don't puke out your food beacuse you'll ruin your matablosim which will make you fatter! ]: fullmooncurse Posted at 6:59 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 I remember when I was like that. I obbsessed over every little calorie. But I'm a lot better now. But yes I can relate to you. liveone555 Posted at 6:58 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Pm me... I am kinda in your spot too... EnticingMind Posted at 6:58 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Calm down there. 128 is actually a nice average weight. You aren't disgusting for eating, in fact you eat LESS than I do. If you really feel that you are putting on too much weight, then control your eating habits by doing a sport or working out. Don't feel bad for eating three slices, don't feel back for eating any thing. It's just food. Just relax and stop being so down on yourself for your eating habits. Habits are hard to break but easy to work with gradually. MeJulia Posted at 6:57 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations KKKay Posted at 6:57 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Oh please shut up. Just get drunk. No but really. You are not fat. You should really try to get some help. And it is possible, you don't need to die. Please tell someone. Or try not to throw up so much. Monroe Posted at 6:57 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Wow. I think you should definitely get some sort of help. It's pretty obvious you have an eating disorder. scott sm Posted at 6:57 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 wow wait there one moment dont do anything stupid, listen do you want to talk to help get some things off yer chest All 8 previous replies displayed.