Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic WHY I Feel Alone: My Depressing View On Reality. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [mod]hi sarah[/mod] at 9:39 am on Dec. 19, 2008[quote]If you really want some proper replies if you're really depressed and need help, (sorry mine wasn't so good) you can post in the eHelp forum.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 9:16 am on Dec. 19, 2008 Anonymous = Friends on here. So here goes, take time to read it, who knows what you'll discover. Reality for me sucks. Just sucks. I just came out of a great movie, Twilight, and it was amazing but made me depressed. It got me thinking how much I wish life was as easy as being a super strong, fast immortal. You then contrast it with reality, full of murders, dirty streets, illness, boring lives. I dont want that. I just spend life with my huge imagination, wishing these things were real, would take me away and make me happy, make me a vampire, an immortal. Day by day, school, teasing, bullying, I answer a question, and due to my preference to hanging round with females I am now dubbed "gayboy" by the jocks, the chav, y'know, the twats. It makes me think, gets m thinking, what if I was, would anyone care, what would people think. No no, I want a family, but I...I dont know. I guess thats label-free for you, for those who really dont give a shit. Then theres things that make you self conscious, I hate my teeth, they're so misshapen why cant my nose be smaller, my hips are too big for a guy, whats wrong with me, Fuck, im so ugly. The recession, the credit crunch, oh great, lets hit a world where no-one can afford anything. I just wish life was simpler, like there was a place, a village, where the streets were clean, everyone was healthy and happy, with no worries, carefree. Its what I wish. Thats what makes me depressed, knowing that reality is so much the opposite of what I wish it could be like, that reading books and seeing fantasy films, they seem almost real. I want to be there, with them. Happy. Thats why I am depressed right now, not suicidal just sad, at knowing that the future holds nothing happy, all sadness and depression, repetitive days, weeks, months, years. I wish it wasn't like that, I wish could just be happy

Replies samurai608 Posted at 1:38 am on Dec. 20, 2008 If you need to talk message me, and i'll give you my SN for AIM =] amiee Posted at 2:57 pm on Dec. 19, 2008 Millions of us, I'll bet, are wishing for exactly what you are. A life worlds away from the one we currently have, simply due to how fucking shite it all is. The economy, the crime, our own laziness, how boring it is, how sad and desperate it all is. You're not alone in wanting a life away from that, I absolutely promise you. Thing is, at the end of the day, you can only live with what you've got. Yeah, the world's pretty fucked up and things are pretty shit all round. That doesn't mean you can be happy in your own little world with your own life. It doesn't mean you can't make your own life the best it can be with the best of your ability. I disagree with you on one major point though: Thats why I am depressed right now, not suicidal just sad, at knowing that the future holds nothing happy If you look at things on such a large scale then yeah, it's miserable. But look closer. Hope & happiness are indeed found in the darkest places. In the places more close to home. Try not to focus on how crap it all is because it will blind you too the stuff you can appreciate, should you let yourself. I've had to learn to do it because for such a long time I was fed up with the world and how awfully mundane life is. We all have to go through the motions of living - the job you hate to pay from a crappy wee house, not being able to turn on the news without hearing of yet another heartbreaking crime and not being able to leave the house without being troubled by "chavs" - but life can go beyond that. I suppose we just have to take the good with the bad. I don't know what'll work for you, but for me personally I take joy in the tiny wee things no one else gives a shit about. I give a shit and it makes me happier and makes my life more enjoyable. Perhaps you should seek to do the same. Aliboo Posted at 1:49 pm on Dec. 19, 2008 You have to get yourself out of this downer faze. I look at this world and feel some of the same things. But you need to find something positive in your life and connect to it or it will NEVER get any better. theyareAs Posted at 11:19 am on Dec. 19, 2008 Life is great once you find something worth living. I havnt found that thing out and very few have. The world of today is terrible and its only gona get worse, but that where the fun comes in! living in a perfect world would b boring as fuck. And maybe your life wont get better, its up to you. I hope it does though hi sarah Posted at 9:39 am on Dec. 19, 2008 If you really want some proper replies if you're really depressed and need help, (sorry mine wasn't so good) you can post in the eHelp forum. hi sarah Posted at 9:34 am on Dec. 19, 2008 Life gets everyone down, I am currently depressed too but I still try to envision a happier tomorrow. You shouldn't worry what people say at school - I know easier said than done but still, you need to learn to ignore what they say, because all through life stupid needy people will say shit to you. Disliking things about you creates like a negativity bubble around you which turns everything negative as well. Try looking at the positives about yourself - we both know you have some positive features so tell yourself them and forget the negatives. You wont be at school for much longer (even if it is a couple of years) what's a couple years compared to the rest of your life? We all wish for a happier world, but we all know it will probably never happen because there will be negative, bad people forever. The only thing you can do is make YOUR life happy, put that first not the world. Don't let things like looks and money get you down. Focus on things like family friends future goals. So what you hang out with girls? I have a few guys who hang out in this massive girl group at school and they get called faggots, but they know they aren't and that is all that matters. The other guys are probably just jealous you're hanging with the girls. Honestly, feel better because somehow life gets better eventually. Anonymous Posted at 9:28 am on Dec. 19, 2008 I need to talk to someone, seriously :/ Anonymous Posted at 9:25 am on Dec. 19, 2008 Heh, not a single reply, what ? too deep for you ? cant be assed to read it ? Figures. All 8 previous replies displayed.