Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Hopeless and i might take a wrong step Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]toxic blood[/m] at 5:03 am on Aug. 16, 2006[quote]I'm addicted to cutting from 3 years and everytime i try to reinvent myself i fail due to my surroundings. I havent cut for a couple of days as my mother has hid my knife and a glass peice. My cutting started when when i was in school in grade 9th. i spent 2 years in tht school and now im in college. today was my first day in this college and i thought it'll be a new begining for me and i'll forget everything and change myself. But what i thought was not real. Today was the worst day. Everytoime i wanne change i fail maybe its bcuz of my lack of confidence...i think ive lost it. i dont want to spend another 2 yrs in this college just like the way i did in my school with cutting. i wanne improve things as i cant take this nemore. I cant change this college also. My mother has changed too as first when she came to know abt my mental problems she was very cooperative. Sometymes i feel as if my own family is somebody else's theyr like strangers to me. I feel like running away sometymes. My parenta have high expectations from me tht after studying i'll go into a respected field, but i dont think so i want to. no matter how hard i try i cant seem to forget things and i feel hopeless. The real problem is tht i want to change myself qucly n make a gud impression of myself in my collgege and make nice friends otherwise i'll have to spend nother 2 yrs crying....plz help people  :sad: [/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post toxic blood Posted at 5:03 am on Aug. 16, 2006 I'm addicted to cutting from 3 years and everytime i try to reinvent myself i fail due to my surroundings. I havent cut for a couple of days as my mother has hid my knife and a glass peice. My cutting started when when i was in school in grade 9th. i spent 2 years in tht school and now im in college. today was my first day in this college and i thought it'll be a new begining for me and i'll forget everything and change myself. But what i thought was not real. Today was the worst day. Everytoime i wanne change i fail maybe its bcuz of my lack of confidence...i think ive lost it. i dont want to spend another 2 yrs in this college just like the way i did in my school with cutting. i wanne improve things as i cant take this nemore. I cant change this college also. My mother has changed too as first when she came to know abt my mental problems she was very cooperative. Sometymes i feel as if my own family is somebody else's theyr like strangers to me. I feel like running away sometymes. My parenta have high expectations from me tht after studying i'll go into a respected field, but i dont think so i want to. no matter how hard i try i cant seem to forget things and i feel hopeless. The real problem is tht i want to change myself qucly n make a gud impression of myself in my collgege and make nice friends otherwise i'll have to spend nother 2 yrs crying....plz help people

Replies hipbabe Posted at 4:06 am on Aug. 17, 2006 I totally know what u r going through i cut and i dont know ur reasons. but i need help. I have tried to get help but i never seem to get it. But i havent cut in 2 weeks now cause i cant find anything to cut since ther all dirty but i like my change but i smoke more then before but i am triying to change and the first step is realicing it and u have so now the second step try not to cut keep anway put loud music on and cry thats how i got past it even though thinking about what i have been through an what im going through makes me want to cut some how i get over that feeling and think about good things like my boyfriend my life is turning round im getting new friends since i use to live in spain and i moved and if i can im sure u can to. Put loud music cry dance do anything to make u feel better and if it still dont help get someone to help u. hope it all goes well. Sweetest Sin Posted at 11:16 pm on Aug. 16, 2006 Be patient, change takes time and nothing will happen over night. But if you truley want to get better, the frist step is admitting you need help and getting it. And remember to talk to people you trust to get through hard times, i was also into cutting when i hit grade 9, but i knew it was right so i got help about a yr after, and i didnt want to admitt that i needed it but i knew i did. It was the hardest but best thing i ever did for myself, i havnt cut myself in almost a year. Remember to be patient with it And to talk to people you trust and im here if you need to talk. toxic blood Posted at 5:44 am on Aug. 16, 2006 umm if tomorrow something bad happens in tht class then i will or else ill see...thnx neway! Spice Posted at 5:23 am on Aug. 16, 2006 Quote: from toxic blood at 1:19 pm on Aug. 16, 2006 wow...i never knew there are ppl like you guys...neway thts rite tht change takes tyme and i shuld take a step in improving my conditons. but wht will i do tomorrow? shall i change my class n go another one... ill give this college a chance as u said and its not soo bad..but i all depends on ur classmates rite? i just need to have ppl of my type in tht college n i guess ill do just fine.. Don't change your class now. Give this a chance. You can't do hundreds of changes at once or it will all fall apart. toxic blood Posted at 5:19 am on Aug. 16, 2006 wow...i never knew there are ppl like you guys...neway thts rite tht change takes tyme and i shuld take a step in improving my conditons. but wht will i do tomorrow? shall i change my class n go another one... ill give this college a chance as u said and its not soo bad..but i all depends on ur classmates rite? i just need to have ppl of my type in tht college n i guess ill do just fine.. sophiethelibrarian Posted at 5:08 am on Aug. 16, 2006 I can understand what you're concerned about, and I think I would be trying to do what you are now, and quitting now! The hardest part is always asking for help, and you have done that now. So, we can make a start. It's like someone who used to smoke cigarettes. You get into a habit of doing it, and you can't help it. A certain situation comes along and you light one up, and it's the same with cutting. You get into a certain mood or something happens, and you instinnctively think about cutting. Well you need to break the cycle. We can only give you some advice and some past experiences but you need better help than this. You need to get to the Dr's and they will refer you for councilling. It's not good, as it hurts at first to talk about things, but it will help in the long run, I promise. They will look at why you do this and if there's ways of getting you away from that and maybe focussed on something else. Above all, I'm sure you have friends who support you. I am here if you need to talk. Spice Posted at 5:07 am on Aug. 16, 2006 First of all, change takes time. You need to take it one step at a time, and if you do take a wrong step then you can fall back to the last right step - which won't be too far away. You need to build you confidence up. Socialise with those your own age. You need a support group other than your family. Though they will be there for you no matter what they cannot always deal with everything you're going through. You're mother may be in pain watching you doing this to yourself... look for a substitue, an elastic band on the wrist has been suggested many times. Just DO NOT CUT YOURSELF. Please. Many more people care for you than you think. Think of those... Give this college a chance. Just don't reveal your past yet - otherwise people may hold back. Good luck. PM if you need to BornInWater Posted at 5:06 am on Aug. 16, 2006 You need to talk to a therapist or a doctor about this, and dont be afraid to tell your parents, or another person you think would understand, to get you help. You need to seek some help!!!:) All 8 previous replies displayed.