I just wish I had more support. I would do anything for a big family.
My dad was emotionally abusive and my mom became emotionally distant from that. I mean that's what I observed growing up.
I just feel like I'm doing everything on my own, without much support.
Will it get easier?
Whether you want to see someone on a professional level, or just talk to a friend, should be up to you. Most colleges and universities I am familiar with have counseling services, and many people on livewire would lavish the thought of helping someone else to feel more comfortable. Best of luck with everything, it does get easier.
Stop giving yourself the impression this is destroying you, this is making you different, it's not. We are all living similar problems, don't let it grow up with you :)
Oh...and if you feel like you need to talk about it, I'm here