im locking myself away from the world since the world doesnt want me
Sometimes we all feel like that. As if everyone stares at you, or that you feel ugly compared to someone else. But you know, when you talk to the people that you think are like models, THEY hate themselves and think they're ugly and wish they were different.
My point? Is that no matter what you look like, most people are never happy or wish something was different.
So, you need to stop feeling so bad, and realise that someone's true beauty is not on the outside but on the inside.
We all get the odd stare, or laugh or people saying hurtful comments to make themselves feel better - but you can rise above it.
There is no-one else on this planet exactly like you - you're unique - so smile, and be brave and show the world how nice you are x
but you have to keep hopeful, the above may happen, or something else may happen, but something will happen, unless you sit locked in your room
Many people have a very difficult time viewing themselves as others see them... you really just have to give people the chance and opportunity to see the real you.