My instructor pretty much said I would have to get A's on all the rest of the assignments to 'do okay'. I'm very picky about my grades, and I always strive to do better than just 'okay' - I consider anything below a B to be a lousy grade. I don't want to think so much about this incident from today, but I can't help it. I want to do well and I hate myself to no end when I screw something up like this. My friend happened to come over while I was in the middle of breaking down and he had to talk me out of leaping off my balcony...that's how damn upset I was over an assignment. See how obsessive I am?
Is there any way I can possibly learn to relax about homework? I don't want to relax so much that I don't care about anything, but I hate feeling like I want to kill myself over my homework. In any case, I am considering dropping the class and taking it later with a different instructor if I get anything lower than a C - I'm so worried about my GPA being too low that I refuse to do horribly if I don't have to.
As for the one class you spoke about, look into either withdrawing, dropping, or the pass/fail option. Talk to your instructor and academic advisors about your options.
In regards to relaxing--getting into drugs, alcohol, smoking, even nyquil--those are all not the greatest of ideas. Start going for long walks once a day, outside if weather allows. Go alone, have that be your time to think and be you. Eat as healthily as possible, and take time to hang out with your friends and enjoy life.
Today I was feeling stressed about my grades, so I walked to a playground and swang on the swings and felt like i was five again. It was excellent. Try it.
Do little things [non self-destructive] that make you happy and improve your mood. Good luck!
Also, I can't afford to go to a spa or a sauna, and I do not like sports. And I'm running low on cash in general, so I probably won't be buying healthy wonderful food (like I ever have).
But thanks for your advice, everyone.
this is wha ti do, after a streful work or school, smoke weed, no joke, calms me down
Not the best thing, always. I don't think. Marijuana can make people unmotivated and can impair the ability to learn and consentrate. Possibly not the best thing for someone who is trying to focus on their studies.