I come from a family where, I get ignored. I'm the middle child, youngest girl. My sister is married and has 2 kids. My brother is 15. My brother abused me physically, my sister used to abuse me more mentally then physically. I used to because after I turned 13 we were like best friends. My mom went back to work in 2005, I started working in 2005.

I have since graduated Highschool and will be completing my first year of college soon.

I got a BF in dec of last year, on our first date I didn't want to have sex. We wound up having sex, I told him no. I have finally come to terms that he raped me. We saw each other for a month before I found out he had a fiancee. I broke it off with him. I told my parents I was moving out, I moved in with my sister's family. I have done better in school since moving. I went to the doctor last wednesday and was told my problems were due to stress.

My doctor advised me to move out with out any family members. That's easier said then done. I have been paying for school by myself, my parents paid for one book this semester.

I don't have the resources to move on my own. I work and go to school. I can't get any scholarships until I bring my grades up a little, I'm still under my parents taxes and was told they make too much money for me to get grants. I was denied for a loan because I have no credit.

I don't know what to do anymore. I have attempted suicide before and I'm afraid I will attempt again. I have a friend who lives in colorado, 2 friends who live 45min from me. they are trying to help me but have there own lives to deal with. I can't go to my parents. I don't know what to do.