The highest grade you can get on an assignment that isn't turned in before the next class period is an 80% so it's not bad, I'm almost done...but fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I feel like such a failure, I've never needed this much help before and I fucking hate it. I used to have almost a 4.0 and now I'm struggling and I know why and it makes sense and it should be okay...I'm at a harder school, that's why it has the reputation that it does. 40% of the freshman class drops out. I'm not alone in being confused and stressed out but I still hate it.
Shit, a friend of mine's roommate just left a week ago. He flunked all of his classes, he just got tired of going and quit. And at least half of my Programming class is gone. It just kept getting smaller and smaller and smaller. It's so tiny now. So I should be proud of myself for hanging on and having learned as much as I have but I hate this so much. I hate the panic attacks, the crying, feeling stupid...but I don't want to give up, I hate giving up.
PS are you at UC? Just curious.
I've been seeing the TA but sometimes it just takes too long for something to click in my head.