So it's 3:30 am. I still haven't finished my math homework which is due at the 9:30AM. Plus, it's a class I'm getting a fuckin 26%! And if I get an 80% on everything else the rest of the semester, I only will get a 51%. Why the fuck do I even bother? So I can stay on mom and dad's payroll and insurance. I don't even want to think about their reactions to the situation when I show them my success in all my classes but that one. They know I'm doing bad in programming, but I'm working my ass off to get that back up. Hmm, I'll probably Photoshop and reprint the paper report they give me and then script-hack the grades so it shows I passed the class or something. But for real though, why do I even bother with the class the rest of the semester?! It requires a 75% or higher to pass it, so even if I got 100 on everything coming up, I wouldn't hit the 75% mark. I want to give up but just can't. It's what keeps me up at night with the constant insomnia, considering I can't stop fucking thinking about it. It's driving me up the wall and such. This is more of a rant than a blog, but who cares. Grr, life sucks.
I don't even want to think about their reactions to the situation when I show them my success in all my classes but that one. They know I'm doing bad in programming, but I'm working my ass off to get that back up. Hmm, I'll probably Photoshop and reprint the paper report they give me and then script-hack the grades so it shows I passed the class or something.
But for real though, why do I even bother with the class the rest of the semester?! It requires a 75% or higher to pass it, so even if I got 100 on everything coming up, I wouldn't hit the 75% mark. I want to give up but just can't. It's what keeps me up at night with the constant insomnia, considering I can't stop fucking thinking about it. It's driving me up the wall and such. This is more of a rant than a blog, but who cares.
Grr, life sucks.