But then today I asked her if she wanted to go on a bus trip. The trip happens to be the day after our college homecoming. She said she'll be going home that weekend. I feel guilty--that maybe she's afraid I'll come home drunk again and she doesn't want to deal with that. I'm not saying you have to get trashed on homecoming, but even sober it's a fun weekend and she's missing out on it.

I don't like being that drunk like Saturday. Because the bus trip is early Sunday morning, this will also be a reason for me not to drink excessively. But she doesn't really like football and doesn't drink so maybe she's not real interested in homecoming anyways. We're juniors and the last two years she pretty much didn't partake in any of the festivities. It just seems coincidental.