I WROTE THIS IN SEPT. FUNNY HOW AT ONE POINT, I ACTUALLY DID HAVE HOPE. Fill my head with doubt
I'm already drowning, so quit trying to bring me down
I don't understand a lot of the things I do myself
So don't feel bad if you don't understand either
Mistakes are what make life so exciting
Our flaws are so perfect they make beauty seem so real
You point out my flaws and it makes me smile
Keep trying, maybe eventually I will colapse from beneath you heartless words
You tell me all of the things you think I need to hear
You're trying to keep me grounded
Sometimes it feels like you're just out clipping wings
I've waited so long and I've tried so hard
You watched me cry all of those months and you gave me words of encouragement
And now that I've some hope in my life
You're trying so hard to break it apart
I never make sense
You tell me that's what makes me so special
I'm so much myself
And that's always made you laugh
So now suddenly I'm happy
And for the first time in what feels like forever I see a smile on my face
Why do you want to take that away?
Everyone always assumes that the things I want are too far fetched
So they let me keep dreaming
They never figure I'll get there
So they keep telling me I will
And when I do
They reject it
They give me every sinario of doubt they can
Trying to confuse me
Can you really confuse the confused?
I'm lost and that's okay
I may not know how to read but I've got the map in my hands
And a dim light to lead the way
My compass may be set leading me in a different direction
But I'll get there some how
And the journey is so wonderful my timing is of little concern
As long as I arrive