anyway, nothing is happening as i thought it would be happening. everyone on my hall like keeps there door shut and i know like my neighbors and thats it. and on top of that my dorm is like some athletic dorm which i didnt even know about so everyone is always at the gym and shit doing stuff. like im down for that, but not all the time i didnt even work out all summer.

and now im just starting to feel really awkward here. like when im on campus and going to my job and stuff im okay, but i just come back and feel really depressed as soon as i get back to my room because i go back to absolutly no one and have no one here. all my friends from last year live far away and i have no car so i cant go to them it is too out of the way.  

i just dont know what to do.. i know i should meet people and everyone is gonna be like.. oh go be social and see people, but i dont know i just lost motivation and i dont know how to get it back. i just dont want to end up not knowing people and hating this year completely..

i just feel like such a loser living in the dorms with all these freshmen and not knowing anyone and im a sophmore and i have a single room, mayb i should have had a room mate. im ust really depressed about all this