Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I feel worthless, I don't have any love for life. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]madoka[/m] at 7:08 pm on Nov. 12, 2008[quote]I'm shy and quiet. At school I get picked on by random people and they call me ugly or retarded looking and laugh at me. In fact, I've been called ugly a lot. Every time someone looks at me, they're like omg I have an ugly face. And I feel like I want to hide. I used to be pretty back when I was younger (so i used to be treated real well), but now I've become really ugly! (and please don't tell me I'm not ugly b/c I really do look repulsive).  Guys used to like me but there aren't any who likes me anymore and some were mean to me after I got ugly.  And now I am spending so much more time worrying about how I look. I can't even do well in school anymore. I'm in college right now and I dread going to classes. I worry too much about what ppl think and it's really hurting my grades. I don't have the energy to study anymore.  I'm afraid to talk to a counselor b/c they'd probably think I'm pathetic. I'm sick of it all. I feel like there's no point in living.  If it hadn't been for my family, I'd probably be gone by now. Often times I just wish I could getaway from the pressures of life and all and go live in the mountainside somewhere.  I don't care for a job.  I have no motivation.  I don't know WHAT I'm good at.  No one likes me and people always call me stupid.  I have no real friends.  I just want to run away where I could find peace!  Although I know I do need a job to survive.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post madoka Posted at 7:08 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 I'm shy and quiet. At school I get picked on by random people and they call me ugly or retarded looking and laugh at me. In fact, I've been called ugly a lot. Every time someone looks at me, they're like omg I have an ugly face. And I feel like I want to hide. I used to be pretty back when I was younger (so i used to be treated real well), but now I've become really ugly! (and please don't tell me I'm not ugly b/c I really do look repulsive).  Guys used to like me but there aren't any who likes me anymore and some were mean to me after I got ugly.  And now I am spending so much more time worrying about how I look. I can't even do well in school anymore. I'm in college right now and I dread going to classes. I worry too much about what ppl think and it's really hurting my grades. I don't have the energy to study anymore.  I'm afraid to talk to a counselor b/c they'd probably think I'm pathetic. I'm sick of it all. I feel like there's no point in living.  If it hadn't been for my family, I'd probably be gone by now. Often times I just wish I could getaway from the pressures of life and all and go live in the mountainside somewhere.  I don't care for a job.  I have no motivation.  I don't know WHAT I'm good at.  No one likes me and people always call me stupid.  I have no real friends.  I just want to run away where I could find peace!  Although I know I do need a job to survive.

Replies XOallixs0n Posted at 6:41 am on Dec. 3, 2008 It's absolutely ridiculous that people are "picking" on you. Who cares if you're not the prettiest girl in the bunch? Who cares if your face isn't perfectly symmetrical? Who cares your body isn't in perfect proportion? Who cares if eyes are blue? Or your skin colored? Judging people by their outward appearance is disgusting, and shows the true immature child that lies beneath their appeal. As for now, there's not much you can do. People will be harsh, that's life. You have to rise above them, though. Show them that you are who you are, and damnit, it's perfectly fine. Show them the true beauty that lies further than skin deep, because, honey, I can tell that it's there. You're nearly glowing. You're a beautiful girl. PromiseMe Posted at 8:47 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a type of somatoform disorder, a mental illness in which a person has symptoms of a medical illness, but the symptoms cannot be fully explained by an actual physical disorder. People with BDD are preoccupied with an imagined physical defect or a minor defect that others often cannot see. As a result, people with this disorder see themselves as "ugly" and often avoid social exposure to others or turn to plastic surgery to try to improve their appearance. could it be something such as this? Maybe you should speak to someone. It is affecting your life drastically.... And I highly doubt you are that unattractive. madoka Posted at 5:59 am on Nov. 15, 2008 Quote: from Jay JWLH at 2:42 am on Nov. 15, 2008 You make it sound like you have a physical deformaty. What sort of one would that be? What's physical deformaty?  I don't think I have that kind of problem but rather its a physical trait. Jay JWLH Posted at 2:42 am on Nov. 15, 2008 You make it sound like you have a physical deformaty. What sort of one would that be? madoka Posted at 2:00 pm on Nov. 13, 2008 Quote: from Jay JWLH at 7:44 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 The job of a counsellor is not to judge you. Their job is to help you with the problems you are having with life, even with school. If people are hassling you, and it is effecting your happiness, then you have to talk to someone about it. Keep finding trusted people to talk to, until you can find someone who understands the issues you are going through, and is prepared to do what it takes to really help you out. You don't deserve to be treated badly. Once people realise you aren't such an easy target to make fun of, they are much less likely to do so. Right now they just know that they can get away with it, and they might even feel it is the right thing to do.   The whole ugly thing... that I don't really understand. I feel there is a chance you are mistaken. When enough people tell you mean things, you are bound to believe them regardless of if they are true or not. It sounds like this is the case.   If you do want to pursue this further, feel free to either reply here, or contact me personally. Well I used to to be treated real well just b/c I looked good, and I wasn't so self conscious back then (in middle school to freshman year in high school.  But somehow, I guess I just got uglier (maybe physical changes from growing up) and I started to get all these negative criticisms.  No one liked me anymore. As a result of being bullied, I worry so much about my appearance now that I have trouble paying attention in class.  I am so self conscious now and I hate it.  Sometimes I shake or twitch in class.  I wish I could just NOT care about what people think.  I think I am also very sensitive.  I get caught up in events that happened in school and I just can't study as well.  Even now in college, some people in my Sociology class would laugh at me or make rude comments, like they call me stupid, weird, retarded or ugly.  Sometimes they do it near me as if I wasn't even there..  I don't know why people don't like me.  Especially when guys decide to hit on me but then decides to be mean and call me butt ugly when they see how bad the side of my face looks (cause my mouth looks big there), and it really hurts.  I guess that's the biggest physical that I hate about myself b/c ppl always have a problem with it.  I always get the "repulsive stare".  Or other times I just have "bad hair days".  I can't even get plastic surgery.   Is this you Posted at 2:18 am on Nov. 13, 2008 How is it possible to suddenly become ugly? That's what I don't understand. Did you get into an accident or something? Jay JWLH Posted at 7:44 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 The job of a counsellor is not to judge you. Their job is to help you with the problems you are having with life, even with school. If people are hassling you, and it is effecting your happiness, then you have to talk to someone about it. Keep finding trusted people to talk to, until you can find someone who understands the issues you are going through, and is prepared to do what it takes to really help you out. You don't deserve to be treated badly. Once people realise you aren't such an easy target to make fun of, they are much less likely to do so. Right now they just know that they can get away with it, and they might even feel it is the right thing to do. The whole ugly thing... that I don't really understand. I feel there is a chance you are mistaken. When enough people tell you mean things, you are bound to believe them regardless of if they are true or not. It sounds like this is the case. If you do want to pursue this further, feel free to either reply here, or contact me personally. TeaPotHead Posted at 7:11 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 you sound like a wonderful soul i can relate we'd all love to be mountian dwellers sometimes but it's the great people who can wrestle with the world long enough to make it their bitch be one of them don't let the fuckers win! cherrys77 Posted at 7:10 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 A life is never worthless. xXmY PaPeR HeArTXx Posted at 7:09 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations bratalvarado Posted at 7:09 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations All 11 previous replies displayed.