I try not to think of it as forcing myself to eat so much as forcing myself to become healthier. The lack of food energy will end up effecting your life negatively no matter what, and it's certainly something which you are capable of undertaking and which you shouldn't have to make yourself have to deal with.
Hope this helps...
I know, it's hard having to eat, yet, in order to do that you need your reasons to. Is there anything out there you want to look forward to in the future. Because with that being said I assure you if you continue the process you are in, you may become to weak to continue.
i want to remind you that sometimes when you starve yourself your body will hold on to the extra food for energy. That in itself is not good because not only does it store energy but it will keep it as fat. As long as you maintain to just eat a snack at breakfast, lunch, and dinner and you can be refilled in the sense of not being to hungry..