so my problem is, should i tell her? this is one of those things that i want to forget happened. and if i do tell her, i cant really tell her until thursday night because she is away on some trip until then. what should i do?
Ask her for some time to talk, and let her know how you feel. You're close friend safter all, and by doing so you not only clear things up, but you'll strengthen the relationship as well . . So in the days up till thursday, perhaps you might want to find some time to relax and quieten down before speaking to her - - plan early . .
Its also great to know that you are able to fight that urge - thats probably the biggest step in getting out of the problem. . . Eventually it comes down to your own mindset - but for now getting her support will help you a lot . .
I am very proud of you for willing yourself to ignore the urge when that happened, by the way.