Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I Feel Like I am a Prositute Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]porcelain cinderella[/m] at 3:54 pm on July 7, 2008[quote]That's disgusting. It's really not your fault, your dad was a shit. He was trying to keep you quiet and you broke your silence. Good for you.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 3:53 pm on July 7, 2008 When I was growing up, my dad wasn't really there, he had visitations, where I had to go to his house and such. Well, I would kick and scream because I never wanted to go. The reason being is that my dad would molest and rape me. Every night, I can remember it. In the end, I just gave up and accepted it. No one heard me, I finally had the courage to tell my mom. Needless to say, my mom and uncles went to my dad's house and beat him nearly to death. But everytime he raped me or molested me, there would be an huge gift. He would buy me $1500 necklaces, porcelain dolls, and other things. I felt like he was paying to have sex with me. To this date, I feel like I was a prositute. BTW, this happened between I was 2 until I was 12.

Replies SLe3piinBeAuTii Posted at 9:46 pm on July 7, 2008 =''( he should b locked up x FENRIS x Posted at 4:07 pm on July 7, 2008 That's a really sucky situation, hun. You've obviously been through a tough time with all that. You can be thankful now that it's over...at least the actual occurrences are over. It's good that you were brave enough to type this out, and to tell your mum. Those things are both good and show strength of character on your part. It's not your fault what happened to your dad. I guess it just turned out that way. You didn't really have any control over that. There's no need to feel dirty about it. It's not like you chose it. You said yourself that you'd kick and scream to get out of going to see him. It sounds like you didn't want to go there at all. The fact that there were "gifts" that accompanied that doesn't make it anymore that what it was - against your will and something you hated. You were very young when that happened so you're tough for getting through it. It's normal to feel down/upset about stuff like this. IT's all part of moving on. Remember that you didn't choose this, and it certainly wasn't your fault. It was a terrible thing for him to have done to you, but thankfully, you won't ever have to go through it again. Now, you have to focus on the rest of your life, and controlling the memories of those awful things and be content with it all(it sounds like you're doing really well at that). I guess people do hear you now. And some did hear you back then. You have a voice, and you're a tough person for getting through this. I know it must be hard, but I won't pretend to know what you've gone through. Only you know that. So there's really no need to feel like that. It wasn't your choice and the "gifts" were just a bi-product of something you hated and had no control over. That feeling is pretty normal though. From here, remember that it's not your fault what happened and you sound like you're doing really well in getting on with the rest of your life. You're welcome to message me if you want as well if you want to talk about it anymore. damianlover Posted at 4:06 pm on July 7, 2008 its not ur falt ur ddad is an asshole and did u get counsilin or somethin lunchbox Posted at 3:58 pm on July 7, 2008 Not your fault. dont worry about it, it wasnt sex. you said no. he did not have permission. try and get past it misscharity Posted at 3:57 pm on July 7, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations misscharity Posted at 3:56 pm on July 7, 2008 awwh!! Im so sorry to hear this! Dont feel bad about yourself, your a human, your not a prostatude at all. I hope your dad got in alot of shit for what he did. No one deserves that stuff!! DONT FEEL BAD, maybe go and get some help a counsaler or somthing. I had things like that happen to me but i was between the ages of 10-13. But i wasnt rapped. If you would like to message me and talk that would be cool!! Dont feel bad or anything, it wasnt your fault Reaper4227 Posted at 3:56 pm on July 7, 2008 Not much you could have done in that situation...he was a lot stronger and bigger than you. It wasn't your fault. The Last Magister Posted at 3:55 pm on July 7, 2008 Why is that your fault? singyourheartout Posted at 3:55 pm on July 7, 2008 Aww. Your dad was actually disgusting doing that to his own daughter for 10 years. Have you had councelling or something? *hugs* Sarge Posted at 3:55 pm on July 7, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations baybigurl513 Posted at 3:55 pm on July 7, 2008 well i guess its your destiny j/p j/p i was just being an asshole lol youre not a prostitute hes just a trick El Mexicana Bandito Posted at 3:54 pm on July 7, 2008 How much would you cost for a night? No, I'm kidding. I'm sorry. I think you should get some counseling as well as get your father arrested. Anonymous Posted at 3:54 pm on July 7, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations porcelain cinderella Posted at 3:54 pm on July 7, 2008 That's disgusting. It's really not your fault, your dad was a shit. He was trying to keep you quiet and you broke your silence. Good for you. 101hereicome Posted at 3:54 pm on July 7, 2008 Awww.. :/ have you had couselling or anything? Most recent 15 of 16 previous replies displayed.