Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Change. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]Areola[/m] at 12:49 pm on July 10, 2009[quote]So on my way home from lunch today I was riding in the car, thinking. And I've realized that nothing means anything to me anymore. I don't mean I'm emotionless or that I'm numb, I'm not. I just mean there is nothing that actually impacts me. Things that would change people so drastically do nothing for me. I'm still the same. When I go back home this weekend there's a chance that I might be losing my virginity next week. For most this would be a major thing. For me, I can't even seem to care. It's as if it won't matter at all. I think I'll feel the same afterwards. Losing something that big should impact me quite a bit. I know it won't. My point here is, I want something to change. I want something huge to happen, to impact my life like nothing has done in so long. I want to feel the difference, but I don't think I can. [b]Maybe part of me is numb and I just haven't noticed. [/b] :confused: [/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Areola Posted at 12:49 pm on July 10, 2009 So on my way home from lunch today I was riding in the car, thinking. And I've realized that nothing means anything to me anymore. I don't mean I'm emotionless or that I'm numb, I'm not. I just mean there is nothing that actually impacts me. Things that would change people so drastically do nothing for me. I'm still the same. When I go back home this weekend there's a chance that I might be losing my virginity next week. For most this would be a major thing. For me, I can't even seem to care. It's as if it won't matter at all. I think I'll feel the same afterwards. Losing something that big should impact me quite a bit. I know it won't. My point here is, I want something to change. I want something huge to happen, to impact my life like nothing has done in so long. I want to feel the difference, but I don't think I can. Maybe part of me is numb and I just haven't noticed.

Replies Areola Posted at 12:53 pm on July 10, 2009 Quote: from JuiceStand at 3:52 pm on July 10, 2009 jump off a bridge into freezing cold water. Why don't you just jump off a bridge where there is no water? Areola Posted at 12:52 pm on July 10, 2009 Quote: from Metacarpi at 3:51 pm on July 10, 2009 Travel.   I'm 16, so that's out of the question for now. JuiceStand Posted at 12:52 pm on July 10, 2009 jump off a bridge into freezing cold water. metacarPi Posted at 12:51 pm on July 10, 2009 Travel. All 4 previous replies displayed.