my mom had bulmia as a teen and my cousin on my father's side had one as a teen. oh and I feel like I lack control in my life and I don't feel like I'm ever enough and I desperately want to be 100% accepted by my peers, I want to be like that jimmy eat world song Here it goes
I was always on a "pedastool" to seem perfect to my parents. I learned after keeping my secret in for so long that my life wasn't worth being "skinny." It's about being healthy, that's all that really matters. Why don't you just start exercising with your friends? Like play a sport or something to keep your mind off of your disorder.
Not only will it make you become healthier, you will also be so busy that you'll begin to forget all about your disorder.
Dieting has also been proven to push you away from your peers as you become so obsessed with it and lose care for other topics. Being any thinner won't make your peers 'accept' you so stop worrying about it.