Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic i wish it'd go away. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]auntiek[/m] at 3:27 pm on Nov. 16, 2008[quote]take little steps!! No need to go rushing into it all guns blazing. like troll1000 said, eat little bits and build it up!! x[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 3:24 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 i don't know where it started exactly, maybe in elementary with always being the fat kid. then, i fell in love with modeling, acting, and fashion. i wanted to be pretty like the girls in magazines, to look perfect. that kind of ate away at me, until i started going on the internet for weight loss stuff. i saw pro-ana websites, and fell religiously to it. i lost weight from it, and i loved it. but i got a boyfriend and i felt no need to be afraid, being around him and that made me want to do whatever for him to smile. i wanted to make sure he was happy, even if i rushed to the bathroom to throw it up. then it went into bulimia i suppose. and my old mentality from anorexia butted in, and even if i had one cracker i'd throw up several time. i want to get better, but my friend who also has an eating disorder told me how badly she hated the recovery center. she said they treat you like an illness and not a person. can i get over my fear of food on my own? i don't really want to talk to my parents about it.. especially if my mom would work at the recovery center i'd go to. i don't know what to do anymore, i'm scared.

Replies Aliboo Posted at 3:40 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Find someone you can talk to and trust you could easily make a good recovery through treatment. its going to take time and it wont be fun but i wish you the best of luck smmayy Posted at 3:36 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 personally, you should try a recovery center. i have a friend that was in one for bulimia and she used to call me all the time, and talk about how bad it was, how they didn't treat her like a person, and how much it sucked. i just kept telling her once it was over, it would be SO worth it. and she listened. shes been out for 2 years now, and she is so soo happy. we talked about it recently, and she said she thinks it was her way of attempting to resist. but she says it wasn't really all that bad, and it was most definitely worth it. so i definitely think you should. good luck (: just pm me if you have any more questions. Thanantos Posted at 3:30 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 well hun it like ths you dont have to be a size 0 to look good i hate the way people are to women it not right i wish that more men were like me The Wolfhound Posted at 3:28 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 You HAVE to talk to your boyfriend and NEVER do the stupidest thing with throwing up. If you have a bf, he's prollly happy with your body, and either way, you CAN'T try to spare time by doing unhealthy things - you'll end up in the hospital. Maybe try dieting SLIGHTLY, but Noooooooever try to throw stuff up or starve yourself to death... yellowsapphire Posted at 3:28 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 3:24 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 i don't know where it started exactly, maybe in elementary with always being the fat kid. then, i fell in love with modeling, acting, and fashion. i wanted to be pretty like the girls in magazines, to look perfect. that kind of ate away at me, until i started going on the internet for weight loss stuff. i saw pro-ana websites, and fell religiously to it. i lost weight from it, and i loved it. but i got a boyfriend and i felt no need to be afraid, being around him and that made me want to do whatever for him to smile. i wanted to make sure he was happy, even if i rushed to the bathroom to throw it up. then it went into bulimia i suppose. and my old mentality from anorexia butted in, and even if i had one cracker i'd throw up several time. i want to get better, but my friend who also has an eating disorder told me how badly she hated the recovery center. she said they treat you like an illness and not a person. can i get over my fear of food on my own? i don't really want to talk to my parents about it.. especially if my mom would work at the recovery center i'd go to. i don't know what to do anymore, i'm scared. Go and talk to someone. It'll help. It'll be very very very hard to deal with this on your own and I really think you should talk to your mom, or a doctor. It'll help you, I promise dramaqueenxoxo Posted at 3:27 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Oh baby, it made me so sad to read this- you are so lost...Just talk to your doctor/ mum... You need help. PM me if you need to talk (I've been there) auntiek Posted at 3:27 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 take little steps!! No need to go rushing into it all guns blazing. like troll1000 said, eat little bits and build it up!! x Troll1000 Posted at 3:26 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 get your boyfriend to help you, you have to start eating little bits then building up and DO NOT THROW IT UP All 8 previous replies displayed.