Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Normal eating Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]miNx[/m] at 12:56 am on Nov. 26, 2008[quote]same here, but im still NOT ready to recover. IDK why, but I just cant help myself. =([/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 10:55 am on Nov. 24, 2008 Ok. Im pretty much in self-recovery mode. (Have tried it many times in the past and always relapse) Anyway, Im recovering from Ednos (basically I restrict, binge, purge, compulsivley eat- so my weight fluctuates) Anyway, So im trying to eat 1200 calories a day (and Im lazy so I dnt exercise). But it feels so weird to eat this amount of calories. Its like its too much of middle ground. Normally I eat alot more, or alot less. Never just "normal". So for lunch today I had a personal pan for about 350 cals and that was 1 1/2 hr. ago. And it feels like since I ate that much in a servings that I should either go binge and eat ALOT more food, or go throw up the 350 cals. It just feels so odd to just eat it and let it digest and then in a couple hours eat another  "normal" meal. This is my second day. Yesterday I had about 1188 cals. And it was okay yesterday. I dont know why I feel like this today. I just want to binge. My last binge was on sunday...and I feel good about making the change yesterday and actually doing pretty good/. Ugh. I dont know how normal people can just eat a meal and be satisfied. Just eat a burger, fries and a coke and then be satisfied, not feel guilty, not want to binge. I just dnt understand and I wish I could be like that. But I never will. I cannot just eat a meal and not feel guilty or feel like binging. I have a "All or Nothing" state of mind and I hate it. Idk. Sorry for this post. I just had to let this out or elser I would have seriously gone to binge already.

Replies Anonymous Posted at 2:36 pm on Nov. 27, 2008 Quote: from PwittyBbe at 2:33 pm on Nov. 27, 2008 okay haha the other girl is a liar indeed Leah Louise Posted at 2:33 pm on Nov. 27, 2008 okay haha the other girl is a liar Anonymous Posted at 2:33 pm on Nov. 27, 2008 PwittyBabe :D.....see...its me miNx Posted at 12:56 am on Nov. 26, 2008 same here, but im still NOT ready to recover. IDK why, but I just cant help myself. =( sunshyne847 Posted at 9:03 pm on Nov. 25, 2008 it gets a lot easier. thats exactly how I felt. Basically all or nothing. But please, keep going. It gets easier and eating more normally gets more normal and easier and it actually becomes satisfactory. And your body and brain responds to a normal amount of food also. Taking that first step is really the hardest though and it takes a while. Try for one week though and then try for 2 and it becomes easier!! I know u can do it babe! u can pm me whenever if u want Leah Louise Posted at 11:11 am on Nov. 24, 2008 hey if u ever wanna talk PM me =) in a similar situation :) id be glad to help u through things. murphy mcbagel Posted at 11:10 am on Nov. 24, 2008 well if it helps, i'm recovering from a messed up self image sugar addiction and severe stomach problems. basically what feels weird becomes natural, no matter what you issue. sadnessness Posted at 11:08 am on Nov. 24, 2008 I know how you feel. I really restrict my eating when i am around other people, or just when i am in school or have a timetable. At the weekend, or when im  home alone, i have massive binges. It sucks :( All 8 previous replies displayed.