I wanted something so badly. I said that I'd eaten a lot at lunch, when all I really had was ephedra and zinc and vitamin B. I wish I could go back in time, and tell myself i didn't want to be ana. I wish i could go back in time, to when i could eat 300 calories without feeling like absolute shit, and tell myself that i was beautiful.
i just wish it didn't have to be like this. i just want to be normal. like everyone else. I just want to be a normal thirteen year old girl...