i still care about him so much, and its so hard not to when i see him all the time and talk to him all the time.

the other night he texted me and he was drunk. he was like you act like i don't know but i do know. i know that you still care about me. but i can't go out with you again. there will never be and you and me.  He also added that i will never be good enough for anyone in the world.

i suffer from low selfesteem and he knows this. and that just made me feel awesome.

i talked to him the other night and i told him i can't talk to him for a while or until i can. i told him he's been hurting me since i was in 10th grade and now im in college i can't deal with it anymore.

i feel so empty though. like he was my other half. and im totally not talking to someone and i feel not the same.

all of my friends told me i did the right thing and i need time to heal, but did i really do the right thing?

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