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I dont know if I finally got the courage to tell him because I'm on painkillers for my knee or what.

I can't stop thinking about how stupid I was to let him go. We haven't gone out for almost two years, but over the summer we hung out, and kissed and it was like nothing ever stopped. I loved him, and I still do. But now he doesn't live in my city anymore. Hes still close but its not the same. I feel like a complete idiot. But I had to tell him... I dont know if it was right of me though.

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Okay;

Well we didn't talk after that... I feel so stupid for telling him. But tonight I was talking to a mutual friend of ours, and I guess Jesse (the one i told) told the friend about the txt; He said it was good that I told him. But I'm afraid that it wasnt good that I did. I found out he has a girlfriend; It's a lost cause, but I still can't let go. I dont know what to do, I know eveyones going to say get over him; But I don't know  if I want to, even though I know I should...