When she gets in these moods she says very hurtful things like, I hate you, I wish I didnt love you, Im done, I want a divorce, I could do so much better than you, your just a white trash con, I could have a Lawyer in 30 secs."

I know shes just upset but shes been saying this same shit since March 08 but shes still with me and only gets this way when she thinks about my past. I see it as the past is the past and we are the present and future. She wont drop it and I dont know if I should just let her go and stop fighting for her love or if I should just end it all starting with my life. Iraq is hard enough without the pain of what she says. But no matter what I feel Im still gonna be wrong. If I tell her what she says hurts me she says I did it to myself. What do I do. I love her. I miss her. But im in a damn war that everyday someone is dead.

I love her so so so much but I dont think its worth the heartache but then I think it is. Someone think of something quick. I know lying wasent the right way to go but keeping my head clear here was what I needed and now I cant even sleep or focus on my mission. Someone please help me.