I haven't been holding up very well, he's coming home Tuesday, but I don't know when I'll be able to see him or talk to him next.
I am afraid he is going to be mad at me for what happened. His mom told me that on the way there, he told her "I was only joking, I didn't mean it, I just wanted to see if she cared" And that is the only reason I did this, because I care for him more than I do anyone or anything else. Do you think he will be mad at me?
Also, our one year anniversary is the 29th of this month.
Unless he's a total dick, he shouldn't be angry.
Coming from someone who doesn't normally say stuff like that, I don't think I went overboard.
he will come around.
However, I was in a psychiatric hospital for similar reasons and those places really do suck. So you might want to make up for that when he gets out of there if you aren't too mad about him lying to you. Although it's not clear whether he was lying or simply covering up his feelings from his mother.