Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic i honestly need help, please Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]Leannbby[/m] at 1:43 pm on July 5, 2009[quote]Quote: from [m]xx rachy xx[/m] at 4:40 pm on July 5, 2009[quote]oh my god hunny. first things first, hug. sorry ok now your thinking wierdo crep but seriously youl need that..... now... ets see, he dated your best friend after a year and a month with you which to me shouts out alarms of "forget him" although im not going to say that to you because if you could then i wouldnt need to be saying it. Please consider a counciller or talking to those involved. Your nan would hate to see you wasting away like this so plase be strong and sort something out.   Rememeber you are living and she would want you to make he most of your time. Good luck x[/quote] thank you so much, but he didnt know it was my best friend because it was from ninth grade and then in 10th he never knew her i just talked to her a lot about him...and she started dating him it was low. and she claimed we werent best friends so he prolly didnt feel bad about it[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Leannbby Posted at 1:34 pm on July 5, 2009 just do me the favor in reading this all. please? I started dating this kid named steven about 2 years ago, we talked all the time and it was obvious we both liked each other so much, i was so happy whenever we talked. we then became close and inseperable, i never thought of other guys and he never thought of other girls, we were an amazing couple and went everywhere together. i never loved anyone so much. he was accepted into my family with open arms, and most of all my grandmother.  Not too long after we started dating, my grandmother got cancer she started getting really sick but maintained health. i wanted more than anything for her to be okay. with steven there it was easy for me to keep faith. we began to get in arguments so i would speak with my grandmother about it who i call my nanny, there was so much jealous going on between us and it was very hard. after exactly a year and month we decided to go seperate ways. he still loved me and i loved him. but too much. my nanny started to get worse in her condition and i had hardly any support. i was breaking down. i wanted steven back in my life so bad to the point where i shut everyone and everything out. he was the only person i could think about. which i know is terrible. we started arguing more than ever and he started to hate me. not too long afterwards things got crazy and we decided to date again, but didnt last even a day because he backed out. i lost it. i started hurting other people for no reason. i changed a lot and without any intention. people started wanting to date me and i would consider them and then compare them to what i had and there was no comparison, all i wanted was him. with that being said it was after christmas, dec 27th...one day before our one year 5 months. or what would have been that. i was upset when i came home from the movies and told my nanny to be quiet i just wanted to go to bed...the next morning i felt bad and went to wake her up. and she was gone. i begged her to wake up i tried my best, i said nanny please, nanny please... i can barely type right now, talking about it hurts. but i need help. and this is why i was so mean earlier is because of it and i dont mean to be. im insecure. but he came and comforted me and all the hate went away..but i fell in love again and he did not. it was all  just another hill to climb and he wasnt willing. i write poems and stories all the time but i never get over it. my best friend started dating him and he was gone..out of my life. she hurt him and i was furious and he broke up with her but he still wanted nothing to do with me, he is with her again because everything is supposedly better and im still without even a friendship..or support. thats all i want really. now i have other people who like me and i dont want them because i feel as if they arent what i want. i cant find it to make myself like them, but he is too far gone to retrieve. everything before, matters nothing now. i feel like im not good enough anymore i decided not to even hide that i posted it..i dont even care anymore

Replies speakslowlove Posted at 1:43 pm on July 5, 2009 Therapy.. It helps My Dreams WILL Wait Posted at 1:43 pm on July 5, 2009 Awwwe Well...I think you should try one last time to fix things, if things don't work out the way you want them to then maybe he isn't the right one for you, and I'm sorry. It's okay, life is about experiences...sometimes we are just too blind to see the truth, you fell deeply in love...maybe you weren't right about him??!! Be positive, you can still find other people just like him, same personality, same everything and maybe you'll like them even more.. Leannbby Posted at 1:43 pm on July 5, 2009 Quote: from xx rachy xx at 4:40 pm on July 5, 2009 oh my god hunny. first things first, hug. sorry ok now your thinking wierdo crep but seriously youl need that..... now... ets see, he dated your best friend after a year and a month with you which to me shouts out alarms of "forget him" although im not going to say that to you because if you could then i wouldnt need to be saying it. Please consider a counciller or talking to those involved. Your nan would hate to see you wasting away like this so plase be strong and sort something out.   Rememeber you are living and she would want you to make he most of your time. Good luck x thank you so much, but he didnt know it was my best friend because it was from ninth grade and then in 10th he never knew her i just talked to her a lot about him...and she started dating him it was low. and she claimed we werent best friends so he prolly didnt feel bad about it soccerislife Posted at 1:41 pm on July 5, 2009 you are good enough and if your ex best freiend is dating him she is a bitch, you should just try and make friendships with people and then maybe eventually you will be ready to date again, he must not be ment for you. xx rachy xx Posted at 1:40 pm on July 5, 2009 oh my god hunny. first things first, hug. sorry ok now your thinking wierdo crep but seriously youl need that..... now... ets see, he dated your best friend after a year and a month with you which to me shouts out alarms of "forget him" although im not going to say that to you because if you could then i wouldnt need to be saying it. Please consider a counciller or talking to those involved. Your nan would hate to see you wasting away like this so plase be strong and sort something out. Rememeber you are living and she would want you to make he most of your time. Good luck x I Eat Snails Posted at 1:39 pm on July 5, 2009 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations bend Posted at 1:39 pm on July 5, 2009 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Aqueous Posted at 1:38 pm on July 5, 2009 I'm sorry and I know you have to be going through a hard time losing both grandmother and the guy you loved, but you can't dwell on it forever. You're going to have to move on. 218 air codet Posted at 1:37 pm on July 5, 2009 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Leannbby Posted at 1:36 pm on July 5, 2009 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Heatherrox Posted at 1:35 pm on July 5, 2009 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations All 11 previous replies displayed.