but i don't like going out in public with him because of ME. if i didn't feel gross and whatnot, i wouldn't care, but i feel like we just look like a bad couple? i don't know. i don't know how to say what i'm feeling.
i guess i am worried about what people think.
i don't know what to do. when it's just us i feel amazing when i'm around him, but when other people are around, i don't.
what should i do?
Really, in my personal opinion, this will get better with time. I know how you feel, because I felt the exact same way about one of my girlfriends, I LOVED the alone time with her, but the social aspects like taking her out to the movies, parties, and whatnot was just plain awkward.
In time however, one gets used to their partner and they're able to build a relationship that is not based on the outside perseptions of others, and eventually what other people think about how you two look together fails to be of consequence anymore.
In all reality, most people simply don't care. Unless you're around friends, no random person is going to think "oh god, weird couple!" and if they do it hardly matters, because you don't even know the people.
If you're with your friends ask them what they think of you and your boyfriend being together, because it seems you are actually unsure of what people think of you two, it could provide better input, and help you along.
Ultimately it is your choice on whether or not you should end it with him soley based on public apperances. Best of luck.
This sort of idea makes me want to rethink the idea that I would rather link arms then hold hands with my GF in public. But I guess I can do both.