Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Apparantly love isn't good for my health... Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]Purrific[/m] at 10:11 am on Sep. 30, 2007[quote]This is going to sound very complicated, but I just can't think of any easier way to describe it. I met a girl in 2004 over the internet. I've always been a shy, isolated boy and I could really talk with her. Feelings grew rapidly and we both fell in love. She wanted to be with me in 2005. I was planning to leave the country then. But it didn't happen, because I was afraid I'd be a disapointment for her. In 2006 we finally met and had a good time. But I had big trouble finding to accept that she got engaged now. And she started to neglect me on the smaller things. Which I didn't like. So I thought I had to move on and wanted to take my chances with another girl who had much in common with the girl I met in 2004. However, I ran by her first because I don't want to drive her away. We got into a fight, the fight escalated a lot. She started drinking her pain away, I started cutting my pain away. The other girl couldn't handle it anymore, felt guilty for all this and went out of my life. I couldn't sleep anymore, cut myself badly with about 50 cuts on a daily basis. I nearly commited suicide by too great of a bloodloss. But I survived. That was around januari 2007. Since then I've got incredible periods where I just think of anything to hurt myself mentally. Whether it's true or made-up, I aim to hurt myself badly and when I'm breaking down crying, I stop thinking. It's not I choose for it, it just happens. Mostly in the times when I get sleepy and sometimes even twice per day. At the rest of the time I can be really happy and stuff. But now, everytime I get the thought of sex/love/starting a family and all that, it really hurts me. It doesn't matter if it's a few lines in a love song, if it's a topic on this site or it's thinking how I'll never be with anybody if this keeps up. I don't have any local friends because my interests aren't even remotely the same as the people here. I've practically locked myself in my room for over a year now. Only to get out for work, visiting family or dinner/bathroom/toilet. But I don't want that.. I want to able to have a girlfriend and not bringing myself to depression because of it and not having the risc to loose any friends, because I only have 3 people who I can really consider as friends... But I doubt that is possible..[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Purrific Posted at 10:11 am on Sep. 30, 2007 This is going to sound very complicated, but I just can't think of any easier way to describe it. I met a girl in 2004 over the internet. I've always been a shy, isolated boy and I could really talk with her. Feelings grew rapidly and we both fell in love. She wanted to be with me in 2005. I was planning to leave the country then. But it didn't happen, because I was afraid I'd be a disapointment for her. In 2006 we finally met and had a good time. But I had big trouble finding to accept that she got engaged now. And she started to neglect me on the smaller things. Which I didn't like. So I thought I had to move on and wanted to take my chances with another girl who had much in common with the girl I met in 2004. However, I ran by her first because I don't want to drive her away. We got into a fight, the fight escalated a lot. She started drinking her pain away, I started cutting my pain away. The other girl couldn't handle it anymore, felt guilty for all this and went out of my life. I couldn't sleep anymore, cut myself badly with about 50 cuts on a daily basis. I nearly commited suicide by too great of a bloodloss. But I survived. That was around januari 2007. Since then I've got incredible periods where I just think of anything to hurt myself mentally. Whether it's true or made-up, I aim to hurt myself badly and when I'm breaking down crying, I stop thinking. It's not I choose for it, it just happens. Mostly in the times when I get sleepy and sometimes even twice per day. At the rest of the time I can be really happy and stuff. But now, everytime I get the thought of sex/love/starting a family and all that, it really hurts me. It doesn't matter if it's a few lines in a love song, if it's a topic on this site or it's thinking how I'll never be with anybody if this keeps up. I don't have any local friends because my interests aren't even remotely the same as the people here. I've practically locked myself in my room for over a year now. Only to get out for work, visiting family or dinner/bathroom/toilet. But I don't want that.. I want to able to have a girlfriend and not bringing myself to depression because of it and not having the risc to loose any friends, because I only have 3 people who I can really consider as friends... But I doubt that is possible..

Replies Purrific Posted at 10:11 am on Sep. 30, 2007 This is going to sound very complicated, but I just can't think of any easier way to describe it. I met a girl in 2004 over the internet. I've always been a shy, isolated boy and I could really talk with her. Feelings grew rapidly and we both fell in love. She wanted to be with me in 2005. I was planning to leave the country then. But it didn't happen, because I was afraid I'd be a disapointment for her. In 2006 we finally met and had a good time. But I had big trouble finding to accept that she got engaged now. And she started to neglect me on the smaller things. Which I didn't like. So I thought I had to move on and wanted to take my chances with another girl who had much in common with the girl I met in 2004. However, I ran by her first because I don't want to drive her away. We got into a fight, the fight escalated a lot. She started drinking her pain away, I started cutting my pain away. The other girl couldn't handle it anymore, felt guilty for all this and went out of my life. I couldn't sleep anymore, cut myself badly with about 50 cuts on a daily basis. I nearly commited suicide by too great of a bloodloss. But I survived. That was around januari 2007. Since then I've got incredible periods where I just think of anything to hurt myself mentally. Whether it's true or made-up, I aim to hurt myself badly and when I'm breaking down crying, I stop thinking. It's not I choose for it, it just happens. Mostly in the times when I get sleepy and sometimes even twice per day. At the rest of the time I can be really happy and stuff. But now, everytime I get the thought of sex/love/starting a family and all that, it really hurts me. It doesn't matter if it's a few lines in a love song, if it's a topic on this site or it's thinking how I'll never be with anybody if this keeps up. I don't have any local friends because my interests aren't even remotely the same as the people here. I've practically locked myself in my room for over a year now. Only to get out for work, visiting family or dinner/bathroom/toilet. But I don't want that.. I want to able to have a girlfriend and not bringing myself to depression because of it and not having the risc to loose any friends, because I only have 3 people who I can really consider as friends... But I doubt that is possible.. All 3 previous replies displayed.