Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Goodbye LiveWire, never thought I would say this. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]iceman89[/m] at 11:06 pm on Aug. 27, 2008[quote]all my best my friend[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Seidell Posted at 11:05 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I never thought I would be saying this, but I am leaving LiveWire for a while. 3 Months to be precise. As some of you already know, I was diagnosed with a disease back in July of 2007, and I was told by Doctor's that I wouldn't make it past Christmas, and then once again past Summer. I proved them wrong I guess because I am still here. Although I have had quite a few scares by having to stay for periods of time in the Hospital (2 weeks at most) and being in a coma etc... it wasn't fun, I hated it. I've had so many people tested to see if they were a match for me, and I've probably gone though little over 300 people and it seemed for the longest time that I would never find a match, because I kept getting negatives, and at one point I just completely gave up and decided that I would not longer continue looking for a donor, because all it was was just both stressful, and it hurt everyone by the news each time.           I guess the hardest part is going to be saying goodbye to my fiancee Julie at the airport, and to my mom and aunt, and really everyone for the most part. I am extremely close to my mom (yes, I am a moms boy, but not the type that is bad) and the longest we've been apart is really, 2 weeks. Julie cannot come with me because she is starting school up again (College,) and plus dad wants her to stay with mom and the baby, same with me, but I don't know how we will say goodbye, it won't be easy I know. lol My Aunt was joking and saying to my mom "they will probably not let go of each other (I am beginning to think the same thing.)           Scared? I am real scared to be honest. I mean, I will be flying to Seattle, Washington at 6:30 a.m. today (not even 4 hours from now.) We are leaving for the airport here in an hour, I am all packed and ready to go, I have everything. I am scared for several reasons, I have never flown before, so I am nervous about that seeing as I am scared of heights lol. I am also scared to spend 3 months in a Hospital, it will not be fun. I am scared of the treatment, and the side effects expected from it. I don't know, I am grateful and happy to have finally found a donor, but yet at the same time I wish I never did find one (pretty bad saying that, I know) because I am just... scared of everything. I thought I was strong, but it's just.. I don't know... "fear" I guess of the outcome and what is to be expected and what I will go through etc...              It hasn't hit me yet that I am about to leave here in an hour for the airport and will fly with my dad to Seattle, Washington. I guess it's because I am so used to bad news that this is just too much of a shock for me to absorb, and to fully accept and face. I guess once I reach the airport at the terminal, and it's time to say goodbye is when it will hit me. Of course my fiancee will make me cry most likely because she's been teary eyed all day because she knows what is to come, etc... right now she is with mom so I am on LiveWire just making this topic. We've spent the entire day together so hopefully she will be okay after I leave. lol I've packed so many photo albums that I had to actually get a separate carry on to fit them all in.                 I guess I should get going now, I know the rules of arriving at the airport at least 2 - 3 hours early for security etc... but it's not a long drive to the airport. Arghh... so nervous about the flight, I am literally just jittery right now thinking that here in 4 hours I will be thousands of feet up into the air.      Farewell LiveWire, I will be back in December, unless I can somehow use the internet in my room (if they have WiFi, which I am hoping for the least.) But if not, that is okay, I can live. Goodbye for now.    Oh...   * the real anti christ, don't kill anyone while I am gone, at least wait till I get back so I can see it happening, it's not fair damn it! Oh, btw, you will always be my little sexpot hahhaaa."

Replies hithere Posted at 1:18 am on Sep. 27, 2008 gah i wish i had seen this when you posted it! i didn't know you were coming here! good luck with the transplant or whatever it's called. i'm glad you found a donor. three months is a long time, man, i hope it's worth it. fullmooncurse Posted at 4:47 pm on Aug. 29, 2008 I live in Seattle, Wahington. Hope you get well Spice Posted at 3:07 am on Aug. 29, 2008 Good luck dude, I've followed this story from afar. It'll all be aok. the real anti christ Posted at 9:23 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 Good luck on your adventure. Paper Dolls Posted at 1:24 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 Take care, hope everything works out! andrewcool Posted at 1:07 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 I miss Seidell Alot! Born For This Posted at 3:07 am on Aug. 28, 2008 I hope everything goes well, take care xxx Killtyronedead Posted at 2:58 am on Aug. 28, 2008 Good luck, man.  I'll pulling for you. itoldyou Posted at 11:29 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 goodbye and take care! Erin15 Posted at 11:27 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Best of luck and best wishes for a healthy recovery. shadowpool Posted at 11:26 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I wish you a positive life-changing adventure.  That's sounds like exactly what it will be in the long run. Oh, and flying is generally pleasant, IMO.  It'll feel a little weird when you take off--the plane dips a little then.  All normal though.   Clouds are pretty, and city lights are beautiful at night. Seidell Posted at 11:24 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Thank you to everyone else, I will miss you all. I need to get going now seeing as it's already 2:25 a.m.  and I need to get to the airport for security checks and everything else, plus everyone is getting ready and I want to spend more time with Julie. Bye. Seidell Posted at 11:22 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from iJeannie at 11:12 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from Shaknbake at 2:10 am on Aug. 28, 2008 Flying isn't really all that bad from a heights point of view. If you can avoid the initial looks out the window, the cruising altitude is really just like sitting in a stuffy cabin full of strangers and waiting. May I ask why you need to fly all the way out here (to Seattle)? He needs to go see Mc. Steamy and Mc. Dreammy. Isn't it obvious? btw, sorry about this. I had to. Take care. LOL! hahhaaa...    I have to fly because they cannot do it here (only certain places they can do the transplant,) according to my Doctor. If they did it here, I would not leave, I don't want to leave tbh because I want to stay right here in Connecticut for treatment. Mom and everyone are going to fly during Thanksgiving to see us, so it won't be too bad I guess, even still I don't want to go.           xBlondeVixxenx Posted at 11:21 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations xBlondeVixxenx Posted at 11:20 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 The Best of Wishes & Health to you. I hope everything turns out well for you so you can return home healthy to be with your loved ones. much love and you will be in my prayers :] Most recent 15 of 37 previous replies displayed.