Everyone left and I started cleaning up her apartment - and to my knowledge, The guy I like was sleeping in the spare room , and this "friend" of mine sleeping in her own - and I was crashing on the couch. I go to put my sweater away in the spare room which my bag was.. I knocked on the door and no answer.. I turn on the light - empty bed.. and right away I couldn't help but cry.
My "friend" had just given me a speech about how she didn't want to lose me as a friend over a guy, and I was her best friend and the truest friend she's ever had - then.. she's crawling into bed with him.
I couldn't even explain how heartbroken I was..and am. I feel sick to my stomach when I think about how I have to talk to her later - I was so upset.. that she just crawled into bed with him - knowing how much I like him - and him .. just.. I don't even know.
Whenever I get my hopes about anything - I seem to get terribly let down - It sucks and I told myself I'll get over it, which I will eventually.. but the whole thing with HER - I lost trust and respect for her .. and a lot of it.. I could never do that to my friends. I ended up leaving her place - calling my best friend crying (who's actually been there for me) and her boyfriend over heard I was walking to their house - and made me catch a cab - even paid for it too. Thank God for real friends eh.
What a let down though - how am I even supposed to look at her ? and we JUST started talking again too .. What am I even supposed to say to her ?! I'm allowed to be upset right?
Also - when I was leaving.. she wanted me to stay there.. and started crying, and hugging me.. I had absolutely no emotion towards her .. no forgiveness, no hate.. nothing. I was completely soulless to her
Be careful whom you call a friend. This should be an extremely sacred club that you allow someone into and don't expect too much out of anyone until they pass the tests.
How do you even know she went to him? It might be a big misunderstanding.
It might be a big misunderstanding.
.. I walked into the bedroom to let her know I was leaving, and both were lying in the bed..
atleast it shows you you shouldnt even bother making friends with her again. stick with the people you know you can trust.