I haven't seen either of them in 4 months, on account of being at Uni. I know this probably sounds bad, but I'd like to spend more time with Becky when I do return home for the 2 weeks. Only because with Amanda, everything seems so strained and awkward. This whole friendship probably makes me seem like some husband who would prefer to spend time with the mistress (not that anything romantic ever happens lol)

I just want Becky and I to be more tactile when we see each other (like by hugging, because lots of friends do that). Plus, it would feel normal to me anyway, as we've shared so much emotionally.

I don't know how to go about asking though. I mean, I'm guessing if she really misses me, then she might hug me when she sees me. Shame, as I would like it to happen without there having to be a reason.

That sounded really soppy. I don't know, I feel like opening up about feelings today.