-- Posted by Anonymous at 9:49 am on July 6, 2008 i cried so much before that i now have a migraine, and i am struggling to breathe. i had a huge fight with my ex boyfriend (whom i still love deeply), and although we ended in good terms, the things he said to me were horrible.. they will scar me for life, and i will never forget the way he yelled and swore and the profanities he said to me. there is only so much criticism that i can take as constructive :( he made me sound like the devil :( i think i am absolute shit, and the worst person in the history of the world! (over dramatic i know) i feel like i am not worth the air i breathe and i am a waste of resources, and to prevent me from hurting anyone else i should just be stopped and i should just die and he will probably read this because he likes coming on here and seeing what i write :( so if you do read this, its about more me than you.. just how i feel about myself. he thinks i cheated on him and i swear on my life and my brothers grave i didnt :( i dont like him using it against me when it never happened. i may have done a lot of bad things in my life but i have never cheated on him so now i dont know what to do and i am very very suicidal. i wish someone would just tell me 'youre doing fine, everything will be ok'. anyone :( ive been waiting a long time for anyone to tell me that :( -- Posted by Hi Carie at 2:32 pm on July 9, 2008 Hey, First of all, if you are really feeling suicidal you should talk to someone. Anyone and everyone. Consider calling a hotline or talking to a counselor or your parents or another adult you trust. This is very important. Do not allow these feelings to overwhelm you. Second of all, People say terrible things to the people they care about, its a fact of life. I am so sorry this happened to you, but you have to move past it. Decide if you want to continue talking to him right now. If not, try giving yourself some space to think about  things and decide what you want to do. If you do want to forgive him, do that and let it go. Do not let this be what you bring up all the time that hurts him deeply. you need to face the reality of the fact that this relationship may be over. You need to feel comfortable with yourself and move on and try to remember what it was like before. Remember the relationship fondly for what it gave you but dont dwell on it. Do you have other friends you can hang out with? Try going out, forgetting about all of this for a while and letting your hair down. have some fun and spend time with other people. Good luck I hope things get better.