The replies on my last post got me to thinking. Someone said something about a commitment problem. And i really think i got one. I've always been the girl to sit back and watch my friends go through some of the craziest stuff whilt im trying to help them. I feel terrible for them, i mean these girls get so torn up, crying ALL the time, basically depressed, just kus they aint over an ex. Or the guy cheated on her or something. You know the basics.
Or i hate it when one of my friends jst sit there constanly worrying about wut he's doin or who he's? I mean i think if theres no trust why be with them? Why would you wanna waist your time worrying and crying over sumthin that prolly aint even happening.
Or when the girls just get soooooo attached to a freakin, self claimed cheater, it's almost pathetic. And she still just hangs on...UUUUHHH!
Gosh so basically i'm learning from every one elses mistakes, im the person that sits bak and watches the bad thing over the good. And yea theres times im a lil jelous, kus things are goin so good 4 them but as soon as some good happes, like sumthn bad happens right after...i guess im afraid of getting hurt.
That and i really do not think im really that pretty, yea i think im ok, but im jst a tomboy, ive had nothin but guy friends pretty much my whole life, so i know there secrets. lol Maybe thats y im so scared.
I jst dont know how to get over my phobia, or something. I don't know wut i got to do, im just a very independent person, that most guys jst prefer to be friends wit kus im the 1 they come running to to talk to...
Any one else like this? lol or am i the only one?
Sorry i jst had to get this out.