-- Posted by Anonymous at 8:40 pm on July 8, 2008 I'm totally fucked over. My boyfriend is gone for seven weeks..Today is our nine months. My hamster died yesterday. As if this isnt enough I'm going through a hard time with a friend. I've had a history of cutting and I want to do it again. If I did my boyfriend would be crushed. I need something to distract me. Please help!   -- Posted by Lally at 8:40 pm on July 8, 2008 cheese -- Posted by lilmerty09 at 8:41 pm on July 8, 2008 go find something to do rather than sitting on here -- Posted by honeybee3333 at 8:42 pm on July 8, 2008 Im having friend problems too. Can you message me somehow? -- Posted by Tigerhawk at 8:42 pm on July 8, 2008 jokes2go.com....? -- Posted by myboringlife5 at 8:43 pm on July 8, 2008 sorry!just look for something fun to do or watch or try something new -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:43 pm on July 8, 2008 Quote: from lilmerty09 at 8:41 pm on July 8, 2008 go find something to do rather than sitting on here If there was something to do I would be doing it. -- Posted by ehmusic at 3:37 pm on July 9, 2008 It must be very hard for you to deal with all of this at one time.  Any single one of those things is probably enough to make most people crack, and go back to cutting.  It's good that your seeking help for it, that's a major step.  If you've been able to hold yourself back from doing it long enough to type that out, than, believe it or not, you're strong enough to keep from it till this urge passes. Having your boyfriend gone during your anniversary is going to be very hard, it's going to make you think of him constantly, and make you miss him even more. Losing a pet is never easy for anyone.  I can honestly say that I wouldn't be able to handle myself no where near as well as you seem to be doing about it, if that were to happen to me. I don't know what your problems are with your friend, but I hope that that gets better for you to.  During this time, of you trying to resist self-harming, you're going to need all of the support that you can get.  But it seems like most of your support is away, or having troubles.  I'm sorry that that's happening like that, but that's how it sometimes goes. Thinking of how your cutting yourself will affect your boyfriend is good and all, but, even more important than that, think of how it will affect you afterward.  All of those feelings of guilt, and most likely shame, will only serve to make you feel worse about your current situation. I hope that this post has helped you. If you need anything, even just to talk, feel free to message me. -- Posted by RainBowBow at 7:19 pm on July 9, 2008 talk to some one