-- Posted by Poker Shark at 6:38 pm on July 13, 2008 Close friends never last for me, or relationships. I haven't had close friends since I got clean, I used to live with other druggies and we were always together, but since we got clean we've all gone our separate ways and I'm alone again. It's the same with relationships. They never work for long. I feel like there's no point trying. The only thing I could rely on was drugs, booze and a pack of cigarettes always to be there for me. I like to be around friends a lot, but the only way I could do that would be go back to partying 24/7. The only time I see friends is if I go clubbing in the city, which I'm trying to only do once a month, now. I develop these close friendships that end up distant friendships pretty quickly, it's fucked up. I'm trying not to go back to being depressed but I'm probably just bottling it up and it will explode into a nervous breakdown again with either relapse or suicide. I don't know. -- Posted by Aliboo at 6:40 pm on July 13, 2008 well if you need to talk i dont mind. and i know how it feels to be alone im battling that right now -- Posted by roxxay at 6:58 pm on July 13, 2008 you're obviously not hanging out with the right kind of people. find new friends. -- Posted by Uruz 7 at 9:56 pm on July 13, 2008 In a world where nobody trusts another, its a difficult find if you are able to find a friend who would really be there for you. Trouble is, most of the time, we need to prove our commitment to a relationship before, the other person would even consider the idea of returning the favor. This applies as a universal term, if you won't grant them your trust, they have no reason to do so. And if everybody has that idea in mind, then it just creates a barrier between people. It takes somebody to actually break down the barrier by offering their trust first, but which is a very delicate process, because granting trust to the wrong party will pretty much spell out doom. However, in my experience here on this side, I've always observed the fact that my relationships with friends and others are only as strong as I commit them to be. When I decide to place more commitment into one, the other party always responds accordingly. I guess this is what its all about - how much are you willing to offer for the other person, and if they respond, then you build 1 step ahead and the process repeats itself until you lose commitment. -- Posted by DrummerChik at 8:15 pm on July 14, 2008 find new friends that you can have a truly good time with without partying. trust me you'll like it more. join a club or something -- Posted by servantofgod89 at 10:20 pm on July 14, 2008 I had the same problem with you, and i know exactly that feeling... Try to join a club of your interest is always a good start. That way you can relate with others that has the same interest with you. I started doing that and it kind of help, but just never give up, you will be able to slowly realize the meaning of relationship and friendship once you interact with them. That is how i learn about relationships.. :)