-- Posted by xxprincessxx at 7:05 am on July 16, 2008 I went home last night and the guy i live with seb was waiting for me. He asked how was school so i said fine why? and he said just wondered because i know your taking again. I just stood there blank and didnt answer and he lost it with me. He hit me and it has really scared me. MrsW, my teacher came over to give me a piece of work that needed doing and noticed that i wasnt talking to seb and i always do. Im really scared to go near him now and MrsW was sat in the kitchen and i was getting a drink when seb walked in and he got closer and i flinched and moved away. I cant bring myself to go near him because im really scared of what he may do. i know he found my needles and coke and i dont want to see his reaction. The parties i go to always have drugs available and ive been taking for months and i stopped when i got realy out of control but have started again in the past few weeks just to make myself feel a little bit better about myself and i dont understand why he has flipped so badly when he knew i have always done it. MrsW now knows because he told her and she wants me to get help but im not a junkie i just do it for fun and to bring myself up when im donw. This is the last thing i wanted her to know because im scared she will think badly of me. She wants me to get help and its just making me feel realy bad knowing what ive done but i cant stop myself i still take them. How would you go about explaining to someone you feel you can really talk to about personal stuff? like how do you start it off? I dont have amum and my dad is awol -- Posted by Troll1000 at 7:11 am on July 16, 2008 Stop taking drugs then? I think he was probably very disappointed in you, you don't need drugs to be happy -- Posted by david4 at 7:12 am on July 16, 2008 messege me -- Posted by Hoop chic08 at 7:13 am on July 16, 2008 hey seb. ummm. we need to talk but i dnt want you to get mad about this ok? well ever since tht day u lost ure temper I have been obligated to stay away from you u really hurt me and I think you need help And sweetie lay off the drugs ur much better than tht! -- Posted by DonnieDarkko at 7:20 am on July 16, 2008 You need to tell this seb guy why you do these drugs, it's hard for him to sympathetic if he doesn't understand (that said, he still shouldn't hit you, so hopefully if you explain things to him he won't get angry), just start off literally saying 'can I talk to you about something for a minute?' "she wants me to get help but im not a junkie i just do it for fun and to bring myself up when im down" Not to put you down dude but that's a textbook answer for  someone who doesn't want to think they're a junkie, even if they are. If you were talking about weed or something, I wouldn't see a problem, but with hard drugs like coke and if you have needles I hope you don't mean heroin but if you do, well these drugs can really screw you up. You need something positive to fill the void, not coke. -- Posted by glowinthedark at 7:23 am on July 16, 2008 Tell him you'll stop taking, if he stops hitting you. I totally see why he hit you, he cares for you, and he's disappointed, and you probably broke his heart. -- Posted by xxprincessxx at 7:28 am on July 16, 2008 adn what can i say to MrsW she needs to know why i did it but i dont want my personal life going round the whole school, its bad enough he told her but if she tells her best mate who is also a teacher it will be back to the head within minutes :/ how would you broach that with her? -- Posted by DonnieDarkko at 7:42 am on July 16, 2008 As a teacher she's a professional, if you insist what you tell her has to be confidential, she's obliged to keep it to herself.