-- Posted by Anonymous at 8:15 am on July 19, 2008 Have you ever felt like the girl you're chasing will never want to be with you? And you chase her around for most of your school life, then oneday you get together? I have, and it happened for me.. I finaly got to be with the girl i loved since the day i met her. Then my band recorded an EP and was getting ready to get onto a lable, we were gigging a fair bit and life was exelent. I had heaps of friends, a girlfriend who was going to marry me next year an up and comming band. Then she demands i stop hanging out with my friends because she felt 'neglected'. Lost my friends. Then she felt threatened by my singer thought we were having a relationship.. So i left the band.. Then she cheated on me.. Then we got back together (my own actions being the dumb fuck i am). Then she said to me "i want to be single this year so i can be with other guys, and to fit in with my new friends" that fucked me right up, im bitter and i hate girls.. Unless they make an effort for friendship. Then she goes and gets a new boyfriend, and i can't handle it.. I love her so fucking much.. But i also dispise her.. On the way home from my gig tonight i thought about opening the door and jumping out of the car.. I hate having these thoughts.. But i guess i want her to care abuot what she's put me through, so she can see how serious it is.. Please help me.. I have a counseller but its not working.. -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:27 am on July 19, 2008 I tried to be happy on the surface when this happened... I can't do it anymore.. Its just so hard to fake happieness.. It ends up tearing me up.. I can't breathe, and it feels like she's put a knife into my heart, and then put salt all over it.. Usualy im really happy.. I'm such a sweet guy.. really good sence of humour.. i care for everything.. even the things i have phobias of.. -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:29 am on July 19, 2008 EDIT: I re-joined the band.. But its not the same as it used to be.. it lacks passion.. Sure i can shred the solos when i need to.. and i can perform.. But its weird.. I feel like an outsider.. -- Posted by Anonymous at 7:42 pm on July 19, 2008 Does anyone have anything to help me?