-- Posted by Anonymous at 8:30 pm on July 20, 2008 I'm blind in my left eye  but am considered legally blind.  I can do a lot i graduated from school and everything but the one thing i can't do is drive and i most likely never will.  Where i live the only way you can get anywhere is driving to get to the local city area would be drive because their is hardly any sidwalk and their are bridges and traffic and stuff.  So i am stuck at home unless my mother drives me somewhere.  She drives me to school and work so i hate asking her to drive me anywhere else because she also works full time.   I usually don't mind sitting at home playing video games but their is times where it gets to me when i just need to go somewhere, like even just grab a coffee or something at a hang out and talk with a few friends but the only time i can see friends is if one comes over, they pick me up or at school.   I hate asking friends to pick me up or anybody to pick me up. Growing up my fathers mother my grandmother never drove so family would drive her and i'd hear practically what a headache it is and i don't want to become a headache to friends or family.     My sister is sixteen and she goes out practically every day and i am not going to lie i am jealous of her that she can do that.   so when i walk by i am like what you up to and she tells me and i walk away chuckling or snickering.  Nothing to do with her just because of the fact that she is sixteen doing this and i'm 20 and i'm stuck home.   So my family went to the beach today and on the way back i try to make conversation with her and ask where her friend works and mistook something she said and she gives me a sarcastic answer and her and my mother laugh about it and i called her a bitch i know wrong but she just got me mad that i was simply trying to make conversation and i get laughed at.  she than says something like "WELL YOUR FAT AND HAVE NO LIFE" and that really bothered me not the fat part because i am  but the no life part because that is not by choice.   She says that nonstop when she gets mad at me and has no idea that if i was suicidal it would be the time i do it because when she says it, it makes me wish i was dead because she is right.  20 years old and i can't go anywhere, can't see anyone unless they come over or online.  Not the same i know but when she says i have no life it is seriously like making fun of somebody with one hand because it is something i can't help and it hurts -- Posted by goxpens at 8:33 pm on July 20, 2008 im legally blind in my left eye also, i can drive? I had to get a eye doctors consent though. how come you cant? -- Posted by Rodiggidy at 8:34 pm on July 20, 2008 dude...that was heartbreaking up until i read the last part...are you  partially blind or missing a hand? -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:35 pm on July 20, 2008 because i have NO vision in left eye and limited in my right eye. The hand thing was a metaphore Friends do when they can but they don't usually cause i live in middle of nowhere have tried bike but can't do it because i can't balance because of vision Note: i'd never kill myself, i would never put my family through that -- Posted by Jamslam67 at 8:35 pm on July 20, 2008 im sorry man.  have you tried a bike?  also get your friends to pick you up more. -- Posted by Space pringle at 8:36 pm on July 20, 2008 Lifes a bitch, i can tell you that. Especially something that isnt yourfault, and effects you in such a way. There isnt much to say really mate to you. I know you said you dont like asking, but perhaps you should ask your mom to take you places. And this allways makes me feel postive. There is allways someone, somewhere, worst of then you. -- Posted by xicheeto at 8:36 pm on July 20, 2008 aww you can only live your life as best as you possibly can. maybe try to walk some places? get to know the people living in your area? or  you could ask your mom if you could move to a place nearer to public places. -- Posted by Sara2011 at 8:36 pm on July 20, 2008 oh, that really sucks. i think you should plan a night every week where your friends come over and do something like watch movies, play cards, or something. it would be a way for you to interact with your friends, and you wouldnt have to ask anybody to drive you anywhere. and i higly suggest talking to your sister about how she hurts your feelings. just tell her its not your fault you got a bum eye and you wish she would be more sensitive about it. and also like always, you should be thankful you can hear, you can see out of one eye, and you can walk and talk. excercise always makes me feel better, if you have gym equipment at home, its great! -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:39 pm on July 20, 2008 I can't and won't ask my family to uproute and go live somewhere else so i can hang with friends.  I know the peeople around me all little kids or HSers who are into drugs.  As for talking to my sister she really couldn't care less and compares it to me saying she is a bitch (which was messed up but i'm sorry she is) -- Posted by MariJani at 8:40 pm on July 20, 2008 I'm sorry that you have to go through that.  That is extremely childish and selfish of your sister to say.  Before you go off being horribly angry at her, just try and realize that sometimes people say mean things when they get upset.  You called her a bitch, so she reciprocated by telling you that you have no life.  Even though we both know what she said hurts, dwelling on it will get you nowhere.  Just try your best to forgive her and move on. As for your condition, I just looked up a few sites and I don't see any reason why you are not eligible to drive.  Even if you are blind in one eye, a website I just read said that most states allow driving with one eye blindness. I would highly recommend that you look into that as much as you can.  Getting your license will give you that freedom from home that you really need.   If you aren't able to get your license, then it's time to start accepting it.  Don't live in self pity, because all that really does is make you feel worse about your situation.  Try to think about what steps you are going to have to endure to ensure that you have a full life without driving privileges.  You mentioned that you are 20, even though it may be hard have you considered moving into town?  Many somewhat active towns have wonderful bus or subway systems that would be able to cart you around anywhere.  Basically, no matter what your obstacle is, there is always a way to overcome it as long as you don't sit and dwell.  Start thinking of solutions to your situation. -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:46 pm on July 20, 2008 right now am going to local college and am driven there everyday by moms bf and am picked up by mom or take a 30 dollar cab ride home i can't afford to live on my own yet. I have a minimum wage job and get SSI every month  I am fully blind in left eye and only partial vision in my right eye.  I can't see enough to drive the eye doctor said it and ii tried.  I don't wanna hit a kid or dog because i didn't see them just so i can hang with friends.  I plan on moving after get out of local college and go to albany where their is more transportation and such.  In my town their is no BUSor anything all their is is a taxi and its 25 dollars to go anywhere.