-- Posted by Anonymous at 6:51 pm on July 25, 2008 I will probably end up killing myself or praying to die. I love her so much, and she has been so kind to me. I can't imagine anyone loving me as much as she has. Or me loving anyone like I love her. She isn't dead yet, but she is getting older and maybe sicker, so it's an issue. She's basically my role-model, and my mother. I don't ever want her to die.   -- Posted by Latin Muscle at 6:52 pm on July 25, 2008 that's so sad. I'm sorry. -- Posted by boothy at 6:52 pm on July 25, 2008 But people grow old, you are gonna have to accept it someday. -- Posted by xBeautifulTragedyx at 6:52 pm on July 25, 2008 When mine died, I felt how you say you'll feel. Just ten times worse. -- Posted by Candy Junkie at 6:53 pm on July 25, 2008 She would want you to keep living, think of how much it would hurt her if after all that time looking after you, you give up on life as soon as she dies. -- Posted by bloodhunter at 6:53 pm on July 25, 2008 Quote: from latin muscle at 9:52 pm on July 25, 2008 that's so sad. I'm sorry. It really is.  I know how you feel my grandma is my hero. -- Posted by Millerr at 6:54 pm on July 25, 2008 that same thing with my grandpap he died in 2005 he was a dad to me, so i blamed god.... -- Posted by LightThisCity at 6:54 pm on July 25, 2008 sounds similiar to alot of ppl -- Posted by qi at 6:55 pm on July 25, 2008 My grandmother's an alcoholic, my grandfather an asshole, so I have nothing to worry about. -- Posted by Solitude at 4:11 pm on July 26, 2008 You're afraid? That's bad, there's no reason to be afraid of anything. Remember there's nothing to fear but fear itself. My grandma is getting old too. We don't get along that well, but I do admire her deeply and lover her as much as you love your mom. I have thought about what will happen if she dies. I mean I think I will be a little sad. I have to admit that, but you have to learn to think of death a little differently. For example, does death really end someone's life? I believe that after we die we go to a heavenly place. AndI hope you do as well. So death is just a way of moving into another dimension, into another world. It's the next step toward complete happens, and we all need to die at some point, and we all will. But think about it this way: You're grandma will be going to a better place, because here mission here is done. You don't have to be sad about that. The fact that you want to die if she dies seems normal to me because it looks like you're really close to her, but do you think she would want you to do that? Do you think she would have liked that? I'm sure she would not, so don't even think about it. Just be happy that you had such a wonderful grandmother and treat her as well as you can. Give her all your love and respect. And don't be sad because she will die, because people never really die if we remember them. They love in our memories forever