-- Posted by 1ofakind at 3:17 pm on July 28, 2008 I think I need some serious help but I dkn... My boyfriend took his life last month and I just cant seem to deal with it.  I was already in credit card debt but was dealing with it and had stoped spending.  In less then a month I spent another 8,000.  ((nothing to show for it))  I just got an apartment too.  I feel like I want to die but Im not going to kill myself.  I cant bare to do that.  I'm also becoming an alcoholic I think.  I drink too much and then end up with bruises or doing things I regret.  I really can't afford seeing anyone so I dkn.   Anything?   -- Posted by Natsy at 3:18 pm on July 28, 2008 sell everything on ebay and get rid of the fucking alcopops -- Posted by lilolme at 3:19 pm on July 28, 2008 Just relax you need serious help -- Posted by twlight kiss 94 at 3:19 pm on July 28, 2008 Sorry for your loss but drinking isn't the answer and neither is killing yourself. I'm here to talk and "if" you would like I can pray for you but don't get mad it's just meant to help. twilighter -- Posted by aybaybay1 at 3:20 pm on July 28, 2008 i think u need to stay with family and let them comfort u. yoyu shouldnt stay on ur own. thats hard to do since all ur going to do is think about ur bf -- Posted by anc8469 at 3:21 pm on July 28, 2008 You should talk to your family or parents get some support from your family if you can't afford to see a psychiatrist. Sometimes insurance companies will pay for them though. -- Posted by Majo at 3:45 pm on July 28, 2008 I'm so so sorry, I couldn't imagine losing my boyfriend like that. I'd have to suggest talking to your doctor, he/she should be able to get you the help you need by, at the very least, helping you to locate a therapist or someone who can help you through this.