-- Posted by Anonymous at 9:22 am on Aug. 11, 2008 I posted this in ehelp, but I'm going to post it here too... I used to cut and have eating issues. They both kind of went away. I'm just left with constantly thinking about my weight and scars all over my body. I don't think that was god enough though. I want to see myself completely fall apart. I want to do drugs, have sex to forget pain, get beaten up. I want to ruin myself and I don't know why. I'm going to college in a few weeks...and I know my boyfriend would break up with me if I did drugs. Theres still this part of me that wants to hurt myself and everyone around me. I don't know what to do... -- Posted by MiNNiCK at 9:23 am on Aug. 11, 2008 You really need to do what's best for you---go see someone about how you're feeling. It will, surprisingly enough, make you feel better. -- Posted by Fortis Obscurum at 9:24 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Go to a therapist. -- Posted by hazeleyedangel at 9:24 am on Aug. 11, 2008 It sounds like you have a lot of self-esteem issues. Sit down and write out at least five things that you're good at or that are great qualities. Then when you start to feel destructive of yourself, look at the list. Add to it as needed. -- Posted by Anonymous at 9:25 am on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone. -- Posted by 4irate at 9:26 am on Aug. 11, 2008 I think you  need to talk to a good friend or a shrink of some sort. It's obvious that what your feeling would be tough to get over. Talking to someone would defiantly help. -- Posted by MiNNiCK at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone. Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself. -- Posted by Anonymous at 9:30 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone. Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself. Thank you. I do want to go see someone. I guess I'll just have to be honest with them. -- Posted by MiNNiCK at 9:31 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:30 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone.    Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself. Thank you. I do want to go see someone. I guess I'll just have to be honest with them. Exactly. You're very welcome. -- Posted by Anonymous at 9:32 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:31 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:30 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone.     Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself.    Thank you. I do want to go see someone. I guess I'll just have to be honest with them. Exactly. You're very welcome. I've been here for a while, and I think you're one of the most helpful people. -- Posted by MiNNiCK at 9:33 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:32 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:31 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:30 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone.        Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself.     Thank you. I do want to go see someone. I guess I'll just have to be honest with them.    Exactly. You're very welcome. I've been here for a while, and I think you're one of the most helpful people. Well thank you. I appreciate that. I've been here for quite some time myself. People underestimate me because they look at my blunt comments on many other topics. They don't see the actual advice I do give. -- Posted by Anonymous at 9:37 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:33 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:32 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:31 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:30 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Minnick at 9:28 am on Aug. 11, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 12:25 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 I can't go see anyone until I'm 18. Which is a few days actually. I feel ashamed about it though. I don't know if I could tell anyone.         Feeling ashamed is normal. However, being able to confide in someone will feel nice. They won't judge you. They'll give you ways to deal with your thoughts, your cutting and your self esteem issues. If you give them a chance and actually listen to what they suggest and try it out, you can survive and have a normal life. It's about will power to change and wanting to help yourself.        Thank you. I do want to go see someone. I guess I'll just have to be honest with them.     Exactly. You're very welcome.    I've been here for a while, and I think you're one of the most helpful people. Well thank you. I appreciate that. I've been here for quite some time myself. People underestimate me because they look at my blunt comments on many other topics. They don't see the actual advice I do give. I'm kind of the same way. If someone's being dumb, then I tell them, I also try to help the people who really do need help. -- Posted by Solitude at 4:14 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 That sounds really awful I mean I can understand feeling sad sometimes and stuff like that. I can understand that people cut and stuff like that, although they shouldn't. There's not much I can do really. All I can say is that you need professional help. Someone who can help you one on one. Someone you can talk to who is a bit more experienced and who dedicates his or her time to doing this. Like a therapist or something. Don't be afraid or ashamed of doing some. It would be shameful if you didn't go to one, but going to one is the best you can do and it's nothing to be ashamed of at all. It's better to do it as soon as possible before anything that you will regret occurs. Go find professional help instead of doing drugs or anything that will harm you body. I'm sure they will be able to help you, it's their job after all. I hope things get better for you. i hope you can get out of the problem you have because it's something I've never seen before, but I'm sure you can solve it. I hope you get better soon. If you ever need anyone to talk to when you're feeling weak, I'll be here to help you ok? Just send me a message and I'll do what I can -- Posted by duan at 4:32 pm on Aug. 11, 2008 you need a threiphist to talk to -- Posted by CrankTwilight at 12:55 am on Aug. 12, 2008 I went through that too. I've cut myself and stopped eating to a point where my body wouldn't even be hungry for 12 hours and someone would have to force feed me. Then once I learned to change, I still had a desire to hurt myself. I just had to keep reminding myself of how it would affect the people around me, and that I didn't want to have to hide anymore scars, and now that issue is over. Just remember what's really important to you.