-- Posted by Lulamae at 7:58 am on Aug. 21, 2008 All she ever does is yell at me. I have a massive load of homework, but hse never notices that I do it and how well I do it. so, all she does is yell about how little I'm doing for school. and she keeps yelling at me for being so lazy and telling me how I'm going to fail. Today while she was yelling at me I yelled at her that she's a horrible mother. I know, it's not nice, and it really just slipped out...and she started hitting me. I started having a flash-back and was yelling at her to stop, but she wouldn't...and she never accepts how much I'm hurting. Whenever i told her about my troubles at school she'd tell me to suck it up and stop whining. When she found out about the abuse and rape she wanted me to talk about it...but I didn't a month later she decided that she didn't believe me. Then I had a panic attack right in front of her and she decided that it was okay to believe me again. How can I love someone so much and still hate them at the same time? -- Posted by acalypha at 8:01 am on Aug. 21, 2008 she sounds horrible. she needs counciling -- Posted by Ariella Starr at 8:08 am on Aug. 21, 2008 Sounds like my mom. -- Posted by greenroses1622 at 8:13 am on Aug. 21, 2008 I have the same relationship with my mom. Hate when she's around. Miss when she's gone. You just need to figure out a way to make her listen to u and tell her how u feel. -- Posted by boom spencer boom at 8:19 am on Aug. 21, 2008 WTF!? Omybloodyhell I am so sorry.. -- Posted by Al Legator at 8:28 am on Aug. 21, 2008 You both need counselling. If she's willing spend a session or 2 or 3 dealing with the problems between you. I suspect she won't go though. Regardless of that, you really (really, please!) should go to a counsellor both to get some guidance on how to deal with the rape and also how to deal with your Mom. There may also be resources in your town like a Rape Crisis Centre (doesn't matter when the rape happened) who can help you or tell you who can help you.