-- Posted by TigressaLynnMae at 2:28 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 Today, I got the closure I needed. And, today, I was able to say 'goodbye'. He's the first ex that I've ever had to say goodbye, to. He's the first person that I've loved, that I've had to let go. But, no longer can I let him keep me bound, via a tiny string. No longer can I abide to his chlidish demeanor. What we had, was special, and meant to be, but not permanent, nor forever. What we had was temporary, but it happened for a reason. Whatever reason that may be, we have yet to find out. I will grow from this. I have to learn from this. This isn't the End, but only the Beginning. My Journey hasn't ended. It's only yet to Begin. What matters now is not of the past. What matters now is of the Present. What matters most, is my Future. Our future, not together. I do not regret stepping over that thin line, we had between 'friendship' and 'friends with benefits'. What I do regret is that we didn't speak of our true feelings. What I do regret is not telling you, that, in the end, I fell in love with you. This is the hardest break up, of my life. Not because I'm losing a lover. But because I'm losing my best friend. Who knows what the future holds, for either of us. Perhaps we can find each other, in the end. I'm not holding hopes up, on that one. But, no one can predict the future paths we may one day take. Today, he is no longer on my phone. He is no longer on my Myspace. He is no longer on my Youtube. And, with the end of this, he'll no longer take up such great space, in my mind. I've got the greatest of friends, the best family, and I've got a good education and job, in the palm of my hands, this time. I'm not alone, in this. So...Farewell. I love you. And I'm sorry it came to this. -*Sorry for the rant, LW. -- Posted by Spice at 2:31 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 Oh man, that's how I felt when I split up with my ex I split up from almost a year ago. I lost the friendship, what hurt the most. And we've not even approached anything near to the kind of friendship we had. -- Posted by madrascal32 at 2:32 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 i'm sorry -- Posted by proanalove13 at 2:32 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 Oh my fucking god I'm in the exact same spot you are in. Im saying good bye to the only one i loved today to. Same spot. Except we both knew we loved eachother..we spoke our true feelings -- Posted by K r e s c e n d o at 2:35 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 Sorry ]: -- Posted by HideOrSeek at 2:36 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 I'm sorry. -- Posted by TigressaLynnMae at 2:37 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 I lost the friendship, what hurt the most. And we've not even approached anything near to the kind of friendship we had. I know how bad it hurts, now. I don't care that I lost a possible Lover. I care that I lost my best (fucking) friend. And I know we can never go back to the way things were. I have to look forward, and not step backwards. But I hate that we can't find SOME common ground, on at least a 'companionship' level. And, what makes it harder is this: I see him. Every day, on campus. This comes from the location of our classes. We've been avoiding each other, for the first week, but I can't do that, anymore. That's childish. I'm to the point, where...sure. We'll run into each other. I have to accept that, as does he. And, yeah, we're going to say 'hi', or something to that extent. I don't just ignore people. I'm not a Bitch (all of the time...:P). Beyond that, sure. We don't have to hug. Or kiss. For all I care, we can talk about the weather, but to ignore each other, or not put on SOME front of nicetiy, would be immature. And I'm not that kind of person. -- Posted by agerask at 2:40 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 i can't relate. -- Posted by TigressaLynnMae at 3:43 pm on Aug. 23, 2008 i can't relate. And the reason of posting this is...what? Thanks, everyone, for your kind words.