Pages: 1 2  Next -- Posted by Seidell at 11:05 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I never thought I would be saying this, but I am leaving LiveWire for a while. 3 Months to be precise. As some of you already know, I was diagnosed with a disease back in July of 2007, and I was told by Doctor's that I wouldn't make it past Christmas, and then once again past Summer. I proved them wrong I guess because I am still here. Although I have had quite a few scares by having to stay for periods of time in the Hospital (2 weeks at most) and being in a coma etc... it wasn't fun, I hated it. I've had so many people tested to see if they were a match for me, and I've probably gone though little over 300 people and it seemed for the longest time that I would never find a match, because I kept getting negatives, and at one point I just completely gave up and decided that I would not longer continue looking for a donor, because all it was was just both stressful, and it hurt everyone by the news each time.           I guess the hardest part is going to be saying goodbye to my fiancee Julie at the airport, and to my mom and aunt, and really everyone for the most part. I am extremely close to my mom (yes, I am a moms boy, but not the type that is bad) and the longest we've been apart is really, 2 weeks. Julie cannot come with me because she is starting school up again (College,) and plus dad wants her to stay with mom and the baby, same with me, but I don't know how we will say goodbye, it won't be easy I know. lol My Aunt was joking and saying to my mom "they will probably not let go of each other (I am beginning to think the same thing.)           Scared? I am real scared to be honest. I mean, I will be flying to Seattle, Washington at 6:30 a.m. today (not even 4 hours from now.) We are leaving for the airport here in an hour, I am all packed and ready to go, I have everything. I am scared for several reasons, I have never flown before, so I am nervous about that seeing as I am scared of heights lol. I am also scared to spend 3 months in a Hospital, it will not be fun. I am scared of the treatment, and the side effects expected from it. I don't know, I am grateful and happy to have finally found a donor, but yet at the same time I wish I never did find one (pretty bad saying that, I know) because I am just... scared of everything. I thought I was strong, but it's just.. I don't know... "fear" I guess of the outcome and what is to be expected and what I will go through etc...              It hasn't hit me yet that I am about to leave here in an hour for the airport and will fly with my dad to Seattle, Washington. I guess it's because I am so used to bad news that this is just too much of a shock for me to absorb, and to fully accept and face. I guess once I reach the airport at the terminal, and it's time to say goodbye is when it will hit me. Of course my fiancee will make me cry most likely because she's been teary eyed all day because she knows what is to come, etc... right now she is with mom so I am on LiveWire just making this topic. We've spent the entire day together so hopefully she will be okay after I leave. lol I've packed so many photo albums that I had to actually get a separate carry on to fit them all in.                 I guess I should get going now, I know the rules of arriving at the airport at least 2 - 3 hours early for security etc... but it's not a long drive to the airport. Arghh... so nervous about the flight, I am literally just jittery right now thinking that here in 4 hours I will be thousands of feet up into the air.      Farewell LiveWire, I will be back in December, unless I can somehow use the internet in my room (if they have WiFi, which I am hoping for the least.) But if not, that is okay, I can live. Goodbye for now.    Oh...   * the real anti christ, don't kill anyone while I am gone, at least wait till I get back so I can see it happening, it's not fair damn it! Oh, btw, you will always be my little sexpot hahhaaa."   -- Posted by iceman89 at 11:06 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 all my best my friend -- Posted by Aqueous at 11:07 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Wow. It sounds like you really have something serious that you're going through, and even though I don't know you, I'd like to wish you luck and hope that everything will be okay. Bye. -- Posted by acausedelle at 11:07 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Take care and good luck. -- Posted by Trash at 11:08 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Goodbye, And I hope everything works out for the best for you. -- Posted by RubberTrees at 11:08 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I wish you luck. Having even packed shows bravery.  I'd have still been packing and going crazy. Hope all goes well. Post as soon as you can. :) -- Posted by MakingaDifference001 at 11:09 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Peace be unto you.   -- Posted by the raven at 11:09 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Make the best of it, and come back safe. Bring some good reading material on the plane to help. -- Posted by Torpid Kitten at 11:09 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Oh my. Best of luck to you. -- Posted by Stand Up at 11:09 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Hopefully things end up great. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. -- Posted by brunette 17 at 11:10 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Good luck. =] -- Posted by metacarPi at 11:10 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 awww !! I remember you from a long time ago!! I hope everything goes well because I wanna still see you in the future. -- Posted by Bobster the Lobster at 11:10 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Good luck friend.  I'm sure everything will turn out just fine. -- Posted by Shaknbake at 11:10 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Flying isn't really all that bad from a heights point of view. If you can avoid the initial looks out the window, the cruising altitude is really just like sitting in a stuffy cabin full of strangers and waiting. May I ask why you need to fly all the way out here (to Seattle)? -- Posted by ilovetosuck at 11:11 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Good luck! -- Posted by jellybeana4 at 11:11 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I live in Washington. :o But ill be praying for you. Good luck. -- Posted by wOlF at 11:12 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Best of luck man.  I'll be thinking about you. -- Posted by Stand Up at 11:12 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from Shaknbake at 2:10 am on Aug. 28, 2008 Flying isn't really all that bad from a heights point of view. If you can avoid the initial looks out the window, the cruising altitude is really just like sitting in a stuffy cabin full of strangers and waiting. May I ask why you need to fly all the way out here (to Seattle)? He needs to go see Mc. Steamy and Mc. Dreammy. Isn't it obvious? btw, sorry about this. I had to.  Take care.   -- Posted by EndLess LoVe at 11:14 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Take care and be safe. All the best of luck.   -- Posted by cettemoi at 11:16 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 bye....good luck... -- Posted by SimplisticComplexity at 11:17 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from Shaknbake at 2:10 am on Aug. 28, 2008 May I ask why you need to fly all the way out here (to Seattle)? Yeah, I'd actually like to know that as well.  You sort of failed to mention that part. -- Posted by julymoonflower at 11:17 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Love ya bye.!!!! -- Posted by xBlondeVixxenx at 11:20 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 The Best of Wishes & Health to you. I hope everything turns out well for you so you can return home healthy to be with your loved ones. much love and you will be in my prayers :] -- Posted by Seidell at 11:22 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from iJeannie at 11:12 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Quote: from Shaknbake at 2:10 am on Aug. 28, 2008 Flying isn't really all that bad from a heights point of view. If you can avoid the initial looks out the window, the cruising altitude is really just like sitting in a stuffy cabin full of strangers and waiting. May I ask why you need to fly all the way out here (to Seattle)? He needs to go see Mc. Steamy and Mc. Dreammy. Isn't it obvious? btw, sorry about this. I had to. Take care. LOL! hahhaaa...    I have to fly because they cannot do it here (only certain places they can do the transplant,) according to my Doctor. If they did it here, I would not leave, I don't want to leave tbh because I want to stay right here in Connecticut for treatment. Mom and everyone are going to fly during Thanksgiving to see us, so it won't be too bad I guess, even still I don't want to go.           -- Posted by Seidell at 11:24 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Thank you to everyone else, I will miss you all. I need to get going now seeing as it's already 2:25 a.m.  and I need to get to the airport for security checks and everything else, plus everyone is getting ready and I want to spend more time with Julie. Bye. -- Posted by shadowpool at 11:26 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 I wish you a positive life-changing adventure.  That's sounds like exactly what it will be in the long run. Oh, and flying is generally pleasant, IMO.  It'll feel a little weird when you take off--the plane dips a little then.  All normal though.   Clouds are pretty, and city lights are beautiful at night. -- Posted by Erin15 at 11:27 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 Best of luck and best wishes for a healthy recovery. -- Posted by itoldyou at 11:29 pm on Aug. 27, 2008 goodbye and take care! -- Posted by Killtyronedead at 2:58 am on Aug. 28, 2008 Good luck, man.  I'll pulling for you. -- Posted by Born For This at 3:07 am on Aug. 28, 2008 I hope everything goes well, take care xxx Pages: 1 2  Next