-- Posted by Anonymous at 12:26 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 i don't want to think, i drown my thoughts out with tv and blaring music, i don't want to think. i don't like what is going on in my mind, i can't escape it but i can ignore it, but when i lie down in bed at night there is no escape, i just want it to go away i have been really low for basically a year, i have self harmed (superficially) but i have found that drowning out my thoughts stops this, keeps horrible and undesirable thoughts from my mind. self harm is not my problem. i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper into darkness and soon i won't be able to fight against it, i will just be left drowning in the endless darkness. i haven't talked to my friends for the whole of the summer holidays and i have no desire to do so, i don't care about anything i used to like, nothing brings me pleasure. i sleep until 3pm or later and don't care about eating, i only eat when i feel it gnawing away at my inside, i find no pleaure in it. i spend the whole day drowning out my brain with tv and music and i just feel so low i want it to stop but it won't and when i go back to school it will become even worse, it alway does... i just don't know what to do..... -- Posted by ErnestoTheTrippyOne at 12:28 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 Send me a message. Maybe I can help. ^_^ -- Posted by Scandol5Mossie at 12:33 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 i don know... you should prolly just talk to someone and let that shit out.. -- Posted by x0xAmberx0x at 12:37 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 i persanlly think that you shuold mabey find a lclsoe friend and takl to them , and let things out , you need someone to tlak to , to make everything go away , seomtimes useing your problems for good , can make somethign great, great things dont happen over night so be patient,and loook in your heart, and thats the anwser. -- Posted by Rebeccahh at 12:43 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 you should find somone you truxt and talk -- Posted by Inflamitory at 12:46 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 Talk to someone, it'll help. -- Posted by iguana hunter1 at 12:54 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 what is the thought you want to avoid? -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:09 pm on Aug. 28, 2008 it took me more than a year to write all this shit down as a anonymous person on a website, i am not ready to tell anyone about this face to face and i don't think i ever will be