-- Posted by Anonymous at 5:33 am on Sep. 6, 2008 It’s cold here at University. You know, nothing bad has happened at all in the 3 days I’ve been here. There are 10 people on my course. Seven girls and one of them is a part-time model. I always thought things would pick up once I left home, and I suppose it has. I've had strange dreams the last 2 nights. They are a mixture of here and home. Catherine still appears in them every night. She always drives past me at some stage, only lately she's been in a white car instead of a red car… There are lots of girls here, but I feel shy. It’s like I'm out of touch with other people now. I remember how girls just fell in love with me within 10 minutes and I wasn't the least bit self-conscious. Now I feel like a bit of a fool… I remember before in the city, the heel of a young woman’s high heel got stuck between the joint in 2 paving slabs along a street. She was very embarrassed. I gallantly knelt down and pulled it out for her. I wouldn’t do that now. I’d dearly love to go back to the way I was, over confident, headstrong, funny, etc. But I don't think I can, and worst of all I don't think I want to…I just want to be me.  I just want to feel happy doing what I do, and if I say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing I don't want to care. -- Posted by cherryD at 5:36 am on Sep. 6, 2008  So things are doing well, yet you are self-conscious. -- Posted by amiee at 5:40 am on Sep. 6, 2008 Give yourself some time. You've just been thrown into this new place with god knows how many new people, and you're still finding your feet and getting used to everything. University is such a huge change, and you do feel out of the loop for a little bit. It'll get easier as time goes on and I have no doubt that you'll begin to feel more confident within yourself. Give yourself time to settle in, time to meet people and create friendships, y'know? And it's ok if you're feeling shy with girls. I don't know if that's something that'll change eventually, but either way, it's not a bad thing. If you meet someone you eventually have feelings for, you'll find a way around that shyness, imo. Who knows, though. You might just be feeling shy and self conscious because of how new everything is. Give yourself some time. :) -- Posted by conoris16 at 5:49 am on Sep. 6, 2008 i thought you were in the army, shouldn't you be overflowing with testosterone and confidence